A Light for the World

Running through the nights

2010-05-04T19:51:00.000-07:00

Running like lunatics night after night round and round a circular, blood-colored path of used rubber, with the moon, stars, and eerie night creatures gazing at the scene, accompanied by the sound of cricket tunes and human bellows piercing through the dark like invisible lances, has been a truly memorable experience. Thank God, the preparation for the inter-university track race is at its end. The many bitter sweet moments have taught a host of invaluable life lessons that I'd like to share with everyone. The following is wisdom passed on to us from our beloved coach, a great man who represented our country in the SEA games before we were born, and the many national athletes and coaches that so happen to appear in that stadium.

'Never surrender! Never give up! Be confident with yourself.' (Lee Hup Wei)

'If you are defeated mentally, you will be defeated physically and lose before the race starts, so keep a positive mind set! Banish all negative thoughts!' (Coach Kenny)

'I'm not talented, those days I was the last runner in my primary school. But I enjoyed running, and because I had so much fun training, I won 3 gold medals in the ASEAN games. Enjoy in what you do and you will succeed.' (National coach for long distance runners)

'Training is like squeezing a lemon, the harder you squeeze, the more lemonade you'll make. We coaches squeeze our athletes like lemons. If they can't take it, we'll stop, and squeeze them a little bit more than today tomorrow.' (A coach from Cuba)

'Be consistent in what you do, some athletes stop running after the season, and come next season, they became obsolete.' (National coach)

'I always pray for my athletes, I believe that during tough times when hopes are down and fatigue permeates and weakens our resolve, there is a loving God above that we can seek for strength.' (Coach Kenny)

'I coach problematic children in a shelter home. Some of them have been abandoned by their parents, some were treated as sex toys by the father to entertain his friends, and some were just violent and rebellious. I really hope that sports can be a healthy activity to build hope in their lives again.' (Coach Kenny)

The Well

2010-05-02T23:33:00.000-07:00

World war 2

Women are killed, for they bear children;

Children are killed, for they will oppose us;
China is being raped by beasts from the east.

One day, I entered a premise

An old soldier found a women to rape
I snatched the child from her arms

while her blatant screams resounded in the air

Her resistance infuriated him

He grabbed her hair and dragged her out

I held her legs

We threw her into that pit

The child ran round and round the edge

shrieking 'Mama mama!'

He took a chair and jumped

I took pity on them, and threw a grenade

which blew up, in the well.

Diagrammatic-antipessimisticology

2010-04-29T02:41:00.000-07:00

Learning outcome:

Are you unhappy? Some people are in worse situations than you.

Having a low salary? How about her?

Not enough friends? How about him?

Feel like giving up? Look at this man..

Do you have many burdens? He's still going on..

Complaining about our transport system? How about them?

Complaining about society not being fair? Are your problems comparable to her?

Studies are boring and a waste of time? They are enjoying it!

Hate veggies? They are starving!

Complaining about not enough entertainment? Look at him..

Whining about not having nike or addidas shoes? This fellow makes his own.

Always wanted a better night's rest? They sleep on gravel roads..

'When a poor person dies of hunger, it has not happened because God did not take care of him or her.
It has happened because neither you nor I wanted to give that person what he or she needed.' ~Mother Teresa

If we aren't the soldiers on the front line fighting against suffering amongst our brothers and sisters, or the ones assisting them from the barracks of charity, we can at the very least, stop blaming God for trivial mishaps, and start being grateful and share the blessings He showers upon us with the people around us.

Reference: 'Voted best email of the year' sent to me by mentor Kee Sern.

Being a man

2010-04-24T20:40:00.000-07:00

The air is tense, filled with a thick and heavy cloud of anxiety. Panting sounds are heard, as if an imaginary blob of fear is imbibing the remaining scant air left in that eerily quiet apartment. The cold tip of that 40 caliber pistol lay inches from Bob's neck, held by a 14 year old punk on the other end. Pale streaks of sweat interlace across Bob's face, his blue collar darkens, and patches of that color also emerge here and there on his police suit.

Jack has just left, a childhood friend of Bob. They used to do gang fights, drug dealings, robberies among other wild games. Before Jack left the gun in Jason's hand, he quarreled with Bob, tears were in their eyes. 'You think we brothers no? You think if we went through all that sh*t back then you'll leave here alive? Cop now huh? Tough? Jason! Hold this. Prove yourself to be a man.'

A man and a boy stands inflexibly rigid in the middle of a cramped living room, with their hearts thumping away as the seconds pass. The boy looses his temperament, and starts yelling at Bob to move towards the kitchen. Instability not shown previously emerges from Jason's body language, an inner fear seems to be crumbling his resolve.

'GO OVER THERE!'

'Jason, listen to me!'

'SHUT UP MAN! GO! GO!'

'YOU THINK YOU CAN CLEAN THIS MESS AFTER IT'S OVER?! HOW FAR CAN A KID LIKE YOU CARRY A DEAD BODY? HUH?'

'SHUT UP YO! I'M THINKING!'

'You would not kill me! If you wanted to, I would have been dead by now! I saw you saving a dummy at school during CPR class.'

'WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT ME HUH? SHUT UP!'

'I thought killing a man would make me a man too. Last time, me and jack used to do bad things with the black gangs. That day one of our black brothers walked passed a gate. We took a gun, I took the shot. He was just a kid going home back from school.'

  'SHUT UP MAN!'

  'Every night, I puked. Every moment, I can't stop hearing his family crying. Every time I close my eyes, I see his face. YOU THINK YOU CAN LIVE WITH THAT?'

  'TURN AROUND YOU SON OF A BIT*H!'

  'You think you won't see my face if I turned? Your life will never be the same if you do it!'

A man, is not some one who can do whatever he wishes, but a person that can refrain from making certain choices when he needs to. True freedom, is the ability to make the right choices at the right time.

Reference: 'Without a trace, AXN'

我的得救见证（17.4.2010）

2010-04-17T19:48:00.000-07:00

我的名字叫蔡忆宣，今年二十岁，目前在医学院修医科。我在基督教家庭长大，父亲当牧师，母亲当医生，我有两个妹妹。

我是在中学时期开始关注我得不得救的问题。在这以前我都一直以为若我父母是基督徒，我自然而然也称之为基督徒。竟然我自以为托父母的福气成为蒙恩的罪人，死后必有上帝展开慈爱的双手迎接我们全家上天堂，我就不去追求认识上帝，自认没这个必要，对祂的旨意懵然无知，也毫不在意，过着愚昧又自私的生活。对我而言，上帝只不过是儿童圣经故事中的一个角色，方佛阿拉丁神灯中的基尼，有什麽麻烦才去找祂解决。

在小学时期，生活只有一个目的，玩个痛快。那时我超级活泼，完全不顾别人的指责，感受或看法，只顾着自己的乐趣，从中成为多人的痛苦。调皮的行动惹来许多麻烦，但自私的我不在乎后果，因为那时候我仍处在受保护的状态，以‘不懂事’为借口，度过了快乐童年。

上了中学，我开始过着讨朋友喜悦的生活。为了从同伴们得到好的评价与认同，我染上了许多恶行，如反叛，沉迷于电子游戏，满口粗言等。我以为能够从朋友的爱惜得到满足的喜乐，便顺着他们的价值观与习俗度过中学的日子。最终，虽然生活充满反叛产生的刺激，我也常常享受许多从纪律老师而来的祝福。

但感谢主！那时候从教会生活渐渐认识神，祂也不断在我心中教导我如何分辨善恶，让我越来越认识自己的丑陋与上帝的圣洁，叫我惭愧不已。我开始确认，我缺乏行善的力量，无法达到上帝的标准。那时在少年团契第一次听到完整的福音信息，叫我震撼不已：

‘我们从死里得救，不是因为父母是基督徒，也不是靠行善或修行。罪的工价乃是死，这是上帝的标准，任何善行或修行都无法除去我们过去，现在，或将来所犯的恶。上帝是在灵界中最至高的灵，无所不能，无所不知，无所不在；是昔在，现在，永在的万军之耶和华；单单不把祂放在眼里，已经是个大罪。上帝是圣洁公义的主，无可否认，人人都达不到神的标准。在祂的审判台前，我们都应当承受罪的工价。但神是慈爱的天父，他知道我们无法自救，便差派祂无罪的独生子耶稣基督，道成肉身，为世人承担我们应得的惩罚，无辜地被钉死在十字架上。唯独这样，才可以满足神公义的要求。不怪得耶稣说：‘我就是道路，真理，生命，若不藉着我，没有人能够道父哪里去。’但若要从罪与死亡的捆绑中获得解放，得着永生，就必须重生，亲自接受耶稣基督为个人的救主，也让祂成为生命的主，只愿寻求与顺服祂的旨意，活出基督的样式。’

其实，我早已在九岁时接受了主，但内在的改变并没有及时发生。我的重生过程是一个渐进式的行程。当我十六岁那年，我向上帝求智慧，学校成绩便突飞猛进，在班上名列前茅，荣耀归给上帝！好成绩反倒使我变得目中无人，叫我爱书多过爱人，我也花很长的时间温习课业，忽略了灵修祷告，忘记了神。

那时，我把课业当成生活中最重要的事。忽略了神，生活开始失去平衡。因为我的骄傲，朋友离我而去。常常只顾着读书的我，对待人处事之道一无所知，连家人都开始避开我！孤独的面对中五大考，我失去了自信心。没有神的日子非常难熬。

但感谢主，祂并没有放弃我。透过这段经历，祂让我真正认识到我的软弱，与神掌权的重要性。我放下了自己的固执，打开心门，把生命交托给主。

透过神的带领，让我开始每天灵修祷告。我开始认识神，不但是知识的层面，也与神有了关系，在理智，心灵和生命中体会神。神让我了解祂所爱与不爱的事，神也不断在我内心中产生改变。祂叫我真诚地爱神爱人，传福音。感谢主！我不再活在神的义怒，嫉妒与审判下，而开始经历神的爱，恩典，带领与祝福，过着以神为中心的生活。

目前是大学时期，有永远都读不完的书。但这次不一样了，因为有了神，与神恩赐的家人，朋友的陪伴，在神凡事都能！愿神祝福你！

University Q&A (Part 1)

2010-02-17T23:28:00.000-08:00

  This University Q&A is a pseudo-dialog between me and myself, of which most materials are not of my own, but from a book introduced by my dad years ago called 读书这玩意儿-杨牧谷著. Why Q&A? I want a change from the usual essays, plus I want to experience temporary schizophrenia, just for fun. ^^

A Good Start
1. Why do I need to enter university?
   A university is a place were you realize your dreams by bolstering talents and acquiring valuable knowledge on interested topics

2. What are the common problems that impede students from entering universities?
   Some of the more common problems are lack of academic credentials, economic problems, problems on accommodation and personal issues.

3. What should a student do during the orientation weeks?
   A student should get familiar with the surroundings. Note down the location of the facilities and understand the local public transport system. Be accustomed with the university rules and obey them. Join societies! Meet new people and gain more insight. Lastly, make sure that the course suites your interests and abilities. Remember that the university is a tool and it's all up to the user to achieve desired results. Never neglect the importance of planning and making proactive choices.

Interviews
1. Define 'Interview'
   The word interview is comprised of two words, 'inter' and 'view'. It is a social activity the aims to achieve a bidirectional understanding.

2. How important is one's personality in interviews?
   Since all interviewees are academically or professionally qualified, the best way to shine is to have an outstanding personality. In general, the interviewers seek honesty, aggressiveness, responsibility and a purpose-driven mentality. They want to find trustworthiness, competitiveness and determination in a successful candidate.

3. What should I do to give a good first impression?
   Males should be more linguistic and females, more selective in their words. Interviewees should dress in formal attire. Stick to conservative styles. All facial details should be neat. Practice good manners and always keep a smile. Speak with appropriate intonation, speed and clear pronunciation. Remember to avoid informal language. Be quick to listen and slow to speak; listen attentively and understand the questions asked before answering them. Do not interrupt the interviewer when he or she is talking. Do give concise and content rich responses. Lastly, avoid arrogance but practice confidence.

4. What important practices should be adopted before, during and after interviews?
   Be punctual, better yet, arrive at least 15 minutes earlier.
   During interviews, make keen eye contact during conversations. Avoid arguments and debates at all costs! Produce a well organized resume. Show your eagerness by elaborating on your sacrifices in pursuit of the job. You should have a good general knowledge, especially on current issues. It is good to ask more details about the job/course to discern its suitability.
   After interviews, you will do well by giving thank you cards to the interviewers to express your gratitude.

5. Any other useful tips on being successful in interviews?
   Know you course/job. Do some research. Know the company/university as well. Give smart guesses for unanswerable questions. Avoid exaggerating past achievements. Some interviewers give scenarios that require your personal opinions. They are testing on your problem solving skills, ethics or crises management finesse. Do well to respond appropriately.

University Life
1. Why do I progress slowly in my studies?
   Do you think the course suites you? Do you have any financial, emotional, family or health problems? Just remember that problems can be solved and it's never the end of the world.

2. You misunderstood me, I'm actually in need of academic help. Any suggestions?
   O I'm sorry. Some lecturers offer personal tutoring. Councillors can give good advice. I'm sure your friends will be more than willing to lend a hand, if a nerd like you has any. Kidding..

3. Haha, very funny, Should I get out and make new friends then? Why should I?
   If we are confined within our racial groups, we will get limited exposure and only posses a narrow and inaccurate perception of the world. University life is a once in a lifetime chance to mix with different groups of wide varieties. Enrich your life experience by encountering disparate cultures, mentalities and even contradicting beliefs. Learn to communicate with the opposite gender as well. It's not all about mating you know? Don't give up half of the human race to bashfulness. They can be good friends that can provide invaluable assistance. Lastly, learn to stick to your own values while respecting other people.

4. Would you briefly explain the teaching and learning methods commonly employed by universities?
   Sure thing, first there are the lectures. It aims to share the maximum amount of information to as many people as possible in a limited time frame. Students are usually not allowed to ask questions to avoid distracting the lecturer. It's a good method to finish teaching syllabi under the allotted time.
   During tutorials, problems are discussed and solved. Involvement is crucial. Inculcate good understanding and critical thinking.
   Tuitions are there to solve personal problems by formulating tailored solutions.

5. How important is having a proactive attitude?
   It's very very important. One ought to remember that university is not like secondary school. No one cares about your progress. You are on your own, treated like independent adults and are expected to behave correspondingly. An adult is self-motivated and self-sufficient, seeking help proactively whenever needed. Master listening, reading, writing and speaking techniques ardently. It helps to make life easier.

6. What are the basic responsibilities of a university student?
   Students should manage their own time wisely. Read whenever there's free time. Set up personal study schedules and complete all assignments on time. Loiter in the library often, which contains a wealth of knowledge.
   When lecturers introduce a menagerie of reference books, they are usually just flaunting about how savvy they are. Cut them some slack and let them enjoy their job once in a while, but your job is to pick out the essential reference books by comparing with the scope of your course. When reading them, scan through unimportant parts but read the crucial sections thoroughly. Learn to differentiate what's significant, and what's not.
   Lastly, girlfriends and boyfriends are not compulsory. This matter is a business between you and your God.

7. Now where's the fun in that? Anyways, what should I do if there are too many distractions around me?
   Study in the library, genius. Perhaps you should seek alternative secret gardens to study.

8. What should I do to concentrate?
   Find a place without distractions, then meditate before studying. Emptying the mind improves concentration.

9. I have a problem, I read too slowly and there're so many books left to read, what should I do?
   Are you having trouble understanding text speedily, remembering facts and making useful notes as well? (nods) If you use the wrong reading techniques, you'll even be easily fatigued! Firstly, although there are many speed reading tutelage out there, remember, quality over quantity. There's no point reading at light speed if you do not understand what you read. So how to speed read effectively? Avoid silent pronunciation, that is, make sure your voice box does not subconsciously pronounce the words as you read. Avoid reading word by word, but read idea by idea. Just make sure that you have an overall understanding, most information is surplus. Lastly, as long as you can section out the ideas in long essays, making notes should not be too big of a problem.

Pursuit of Knowledge
1. What are the basic cognitive skills that should be possessed by students?
   A student should be able to memorize facts. He should also be deft at organizing ideas through simplification and prioritization. He should also be a critical thinker that asks excellent questions and expresses independent opinions. Lastly, he must be able to learn through practical exercises such as experiments, role playing and social activities to apply theory in reality.

2. How should a student make the most out of the library?
   The library contains a repertoire of much needed reference materials. A student should spend more time in the library and familiarize with the library's book organization system. Note down where are the essential reference books. Read journals for the latest information. It's good to make good friends with the librarians, who if they find you favorable, might just reveal secret collections of rare bibliography to the exclusive few.

3. What are the common motives in the pursuit of knowledge?
   A 20 year Harvard University research shows that motivation is more important than intelligence or skill when it comes down to successful learning. The Chinese seek knowledge to find the Way. The Greeks pursue knowledge to know the Truth. The Hebrews strive to know the Law. What about you?

4. How to be successful in reading?
   One should be patient and determined. Find friends and family to create a supportive system. Study locations should be conducive as well.

5. What are the pros and cons of self-study? Why must I go to University? Can't I study on my own?
   When you study on your own, you can concentrate easily, read according to your interests and study at your own pace. However, there are many decrepitudes to this learning style. When there are no one to compete with, one easily becomes haughty. One is confined to a narrow and subjective world that lacks the more objective perspectives. A standard like that in examinations is lacking, hence it's impossible to asses one's progress, thus one becomes easily satisfied with, comparatively, miniscule achievements. Learning processes are slow due to the many trial and errors cum the absence of professional guidance. There may be a lack of reference materials and logistical insufficiencies as not everyone can afford these things. The speed of learning may be abated due to a lack of discipline, proliferation of idleness and the truancy of time tables further worsens the situation. It's better to study in universities if given the choice.

6. Why should a true Christian study hard when they are already guaranteed access to eternal life?
   Christians should study hard to practice responsibility in the present life. Christians should know the world that God has created and thus praising Him for His wonders. Don't be pea-brained dinosaurs. Be knowledgeable and glorify God by using that knowledge in helping the needy. Do the right things at the right time, study or serve in the ministry when ever needed. We are obliged to preach the Gospel and make people the disciples of Christ by teaching them the Way, which has the power to change the world into a better place. In the 21st century, more and more people have access to higher education. They face problems and inquiries that must be met with intimate wisdom, hence it's imperative that we exceed the knowledge of the smartest people around to give the greatest impact in the lives of many, for God.

Conclusion
    When it comes to studying, start early. Commence organized and systematic reading. Make notes and use symbols on the books read. Write book reports when possible. Buy the books that you need, not want. Apart from that, good magazines helps a lot in the pursuit of knowledge as well. While reading, ask questions like: What's the problem? What's the approach of the solution? What are the steps of the solution? Why does the author want to solve this problem? Are there alternative perspectives to the problem? Are there substitutable solutions? Can you express these ripostes in your own words? Can you read books that oppose your personal beliefs? Do you dare to conquer or submit to the challenges assailing on your values when necessary? Do you apply acquired knowledge in daily life, especially in helping the needy?

   I hope that this short post will help those in need. Feel free to share it with anyone who's deprived of this knowledge. Part 2 which deals with the more technical problems faced in universities, will come around soon.

A time, before entering university...

2010-02-15T03:01:00.000-08:00

  Excitement floods out from my soul ever more torrentially as the days pass by. After all these years, the time has arrived to end the last phase of realizing the dream in that institution, which is to live the life of a doctor.

  The soul experiences the waves and currents of time, but is inherently free from chronological constraints, perceiving all past experiences as a present happening in an eternal and perpetual quality; Flashbacks of all the pains and sweet moments condenses, forming vague clouds of speedily rolling pictures like that of a monochromatic film. I view it from a different perspective now. All these events that seem meaningless then had in fact, a cumulative effect towards realizing a not yet fully grasped ultimate purpose under the Director's instructions.

  How great is the Lord! The Holy Father, plotting the miracles of allowing the existence of free will thus the possibility of rebellion, and doing everything within the possible realm to persuade obstinate rebels to repent by incarnating the Holy Son into human form and dying on the Cross for us. But Death has no hold over our Lord Jesus Christ, God's only son, who on the third day, resurrected from the dead!  He shows His abounding love by dying for our sins so that we do not face His righteous wrath, for the wages of sin is death, thus granting unquenchable joy through the privilege of eternal life. He then orders all His disciples to preach the good news, that whoever believes in word and heart that our Lord Jesus Christ is their savior shall gain eternal life. His love is so great and incomprehensibly sacrificial! He then lives within all those that believes, incinerating all ungodliness with His Holy Spirit, the Divine Fire, changing us into His sacred likeness. With an all knowing and almighty power, creating miracles through these seemingly random events in the lives of unworthy filth. The Holy Father, The Holy Son and The Holy Spirit, three persons existing in one being, one essence of equal glory and eternal majesty, our One true God; His grace is utterly unfathomable! I stand in a numinous awe before You, Lord. I thank you so much for moulding me into who I am now.

  And now I'm about to suffer once more. I'm highly expectant and determined to discover all the blessings disguised behind those cloaks of torment. I long to enter into the furnace once more and let the Potter do justice on this pottery to fulfill whatever preconceived purpose, with absolute willingness. May Your will be done on earth as it is done in heaven!

First Job

2010-02-09T18:53:00.000-08:00

When I described my job to my peers, they responded in shock because they thought I was selling condoms. 'No! Condominiums. You all heard it wrong!.' Their expressions changed to awe, but still kept on reaffirming which product I was involved with, with laughs of course!

Platinum Victory Sdn Bhd

Well, I was actually a practical industrial trainee working in a company that develops condominiums and shop lots among other buildings. I did everything from paper work to climbing roofs measuring pipes. I landed on the job because my uncle was in the company, and my dad encouraged me to go for it as he thinks I'd learn more compared to working in a fast-food franchise. The contract stated that I'll be serving the company for 2 months. It started right after my STPM examinations. The journey to work was an excruciating one hour drive from my home to Setapak via MRR2. Cramped legs, fatigued drowsiness and bad radio music was a norm for me.

The job was an eye-opener. Leaving the scientific community and entering into the world of construction brought the realization of my utter ignorance. Humility deluged into my everyday life. I knew almost nothing here! I was dysfunctional in their realm. Lost as I was, I thank God for providing a few altruistic guides along the way The first would be Mr. Chong. He was an extroverted, jolly, happy-go-lucky quantity surveyor. He introduced me to a wealth of knowledge, such as the whole process from architectural squiggles to the actual built, safety procedures, practical and artistic aspects of design, relationships between contractors, developers and government officials, among others. We often ate lunch together with Mr. Khong, another colleague from the project department. They would have adult conversations with a boy listening attentively by the sidelines.

After mingling in the project department, I moved to the marketing branch. There, I learnt the business of filing, typing, photostating, faxing, sending letters and other paper work. From a lady named Ms Tham, I learnt about sub-sales. It involves the documentations regarding property sales concerning second owners and onwards. She taught me many facts about important documents such as sales and purchase agreements, deed of assignments, and deed of receipt and reassignments. The relationships between purchasers, vendors, banks, lawyers and developers were fascinatingly intricate. It was a good exposure.

Above all, I learnt how to be an adult, though admittedly I was on the brink of failing. Firstly, appropriate attire is a norm. I faced a slight identity crisis though as I was appearing 10 years in advance from my age. Next, an adult featured responsibility and accountability. They took their jobs seriously by completing each and every one with fidelity on time. Ignorance was no excuse. They strove at seeking practical solutions to practical difficulties. It was not like school. Mr Chong said 'Life is 30% theory, 70% practical.' Furthermore, adults were matured. They behaved appropriately according to the situations with remarkable self control. They also exhibited a pro-active attitude, asking questions without diffidence, and making full use of every opportunity. Most adults were sociable. They were masters of deciphering and expressing verbal and body language. Their words were phrased befittingly which avoided misunderstandings. Lastly, the adult world had a very unpredictable dark side. There were people who do not fancy fair play. I need not elaborate on this. Company secret.

All in all, it was easy to look like an adult, but difficult to be one. One had to be agile and flexible, but still stay true to one's values. I'm grateful to God for this unique training. I hope I'd fair better in the future. I'm truly sorry for all the mistakes that I've made. Thank you all!!

IELTS

2010-02-07T22:10:00.000-08:00

It's embarrassing to say that it all started from my inadvertence as I missed the small print on the University acceptance letter stating that I needed to take the IELTS before entering my medicine course. I have passed the dateline to send in the results when the clerk called in. I was told to take the test as soon as possible, and to hand in the results of my test, of which must be a minimum band 7 to be qualified for my course, or I shall be rejected. I appreciate their merciful conduct of giving me a grace period.

I was unequivocally devastated! When she called me, I did not even know what was the test about. I told my sister about it and she said IELTS was an abbreviation for 'I Eat Laksa To Sweat', My God! I researched on the test online and found out that it was actually one of the currently two world-class English testing systems, apart from the American TOEFL test, this was British. How ignorant of me! Of course, one could predict how my parents responded to the whole occasion. My neglect, though it caused much pain, thought me the valuable skills of negotiation and crisis management.

We rushed to the British Council off Jalan Ampang to register two days after I received the news. It was a Sunday. We reached there before going to the Sunday service. After handing in the application forms, my mother passed the credit card to the clerk. Swoosh! RM570 gone. 'Do you need reference materials sir?' 'Yes please.' There goes another RM100, for a book as thin as a RM5 magazine.

The actual test was scheduled two weeks later. Since I was working, I had to secretly study English under the manager's nose. The whole tedious preparation involved reading expertly written news articles on Newsweek.com, collecting sophisticated words and their definitions and reading some of the essays from those archaic SPM reference bibliography. Nonetheless, I have done the best I could within the time constraint, barely managing to practice piano for the Sunday worship and preparing the topic 'Paul' for a presentation due 31st January.

On that dreaded Saturday, I left home too early and reached there finding myself to be the first to arrive. As I sat at the almost barren Mamak-style restaurant beside a Subway franchise sipping a hot local malt beverage, I busily scanned my trustee vocabulary book while waiting for that hour to arrive. Before you know it, time flew by stealthily and I was among those who are waiting by the lift.

We reached the examination hall. Since the building was in the city center, it was understandably that all spaces, be it the reception area, test rooms, or the hall itself, were diminutive. Most of the air conditioners were turned off as well. The whole atmosphere was slightly claustrophobic, stifling, warm and above all, tense. People from all walks of life, Africans, Arabians, Chinese, Europeans, the young and middle aged people, shared the same strained look which reflected the internal stresses within.

A middle-aged Chinese lady of a short stature motioned us to our seats after the brief identification processes. These procedures were commenced professionally as expected. She started the rhetoric iterations of those common exam rules. She spoke with a semi-Australian, semi-Malaysian slang. The tone was stern and powerful, with occasional errs and failed attempts of humoring the stressed examinees. I was paying more attention to the screen though. I imagined if my sister's version of the IELTS abbreviation were to replace the words 'International English Language Testing System', surely it'll put a smile on everybody's faces.

But nobody's happy. The whole test was much more difficult than anticipated. I expected that it will resemble MUET in many ways. I was wrong. They started playing the record. I had to complete the 30 minute, 4 part listening test with just one hearing. The recording involved all sorts of slangs and forms, such as lectures, conversations, and phone calls. Though the sound was crystal clear, answering those 40 questions took quite an effort, concentration wise. Conceiving sounds and answering questions of various patterns was challenging. Many scrambled to transfer their answers to the answer sheet during the specially allocated final 10 minutes.

Immediately afterwards, the 3 essay reading booklet was handed down. The essays comprised of the field of science, economy and social matters. They were world-class squiggles with lengthy, complex sentences, wide lexical resources, and concerned unfamiliar topics. Some questions required very critical thinking, be it for subjective or objective forms. To top it all up, I just barely managed to transfer my answers to the answer sheet. One hour was scantily adequate.

Albeit physically and mentally exhausted, the writing section came mercilessly afterwards. We were required to write two essays. The first would be to describe two graphs, whilst the second, requiring a minimum 250 words, beseech one's opinion towards an argumentative rubric, which for my case was a topic about whether I agreed that most people could not enjoy air travel services in the modern age. Great question! The response should not be off topic, and demanded grammatical flawlessness, sophisticated vocabulary and lastly, coherence and appropriate paragraphing, according to the comments made by some teachers I found online. I believe I blundered on the first aspect(Sigh). Since my speaking test is two days away, I went home, and slept for the rest of the day.

I did the speaking test today. Since I just noticed I'm illegally typing this at work, I'm forced to keep things short. How blessed are you. We waited for our turn at the exam hall while they called us out one after another into those eerie confinements. The wait was silent agony, as if I could hear the sounds of the human spirits around me crumbling down within. My turn arrived. Anxiously, and unnervingly, I motioned towards that room, knocked, entered, and greeted the Indian lady. Thank heavens, though her looks may be daunting, she was not. We chatted on some topics, mostly about books and education for my case for around 15 minutes. Thank God for giving me the inner peace I prayed for all the while. The experience went by so smoothly that I did not even bother about the recorder in front of me.

I'll be taking the results 13 days later. Surely this piece of writing is at some points, an excessively exaggerated description of the comparatively more serene truth. I hope I succeeded in scaring some of you. So good riddance IELTS! Don't expect me to eat laksa for quite a while.

The Roots of Fear: Newsweek

2010-01-27T00:20:00.000-08:00

For the candidate whose slogans include "Got Hope?" the question was so perfect he might have dreamed it up himself. At an appearance this month at Wartburg College in Waverly, Iowa, a foreign student asked Barack Obama about the fear that has gripped the American psyche since September 11, 2001, and which a number of politicians are hoping to ride to victory. A recent Mitt Romney mailing in New Hampshire, for instance, shows a chain-link fence and warns that the next president's "policies on illegal immigrants will define America for generations to come." A new Tom Tancredo ad declares that Central American gangs "now on our soil" are "pushing drugs" and "raping kids." And Rudy Giuliani rarely misses a chance to evoke images of crashing planes, collapsing towers and 2,973 dead Americans.

So when the student asked about America's climate of fear, Obama pounced. "We have been operating under a politics of fear: fear of terrorists, fear of immigrants, fear of people of different religious beliefs, fears of gays that they might get married and that somehow that would affect us," he declared. "We have to break that fever of fear … Unfortunately what I've been seeing from the Republican debates is that they are going to perpetuate this fearmongering … Rudy gets up and says, 'They are trying to kill you' … It's absolutely true there are 30,000, 40,000 hard-core jihadists who would be happy to strap on a bomb right now, walk in here and blow us all up. You can't negotiate with those folks. All we can do is capture them, kill them, imprison them. And that is one of my pre-eminent jobs as president of the United States. Keep nuclear weapons out of their hands."

The fact that a candidate whose campaign is built on optimism and a positive message is not above evoking terrifying images of suicide bombers and nuclear bombs—and doing so two breaths after he denounces fearmongering—reveals the power of fear to sway voters. Half a century of research has shown that fear is one of the most politically powerful emotions a candidate can tap, especially when the fears have a basis in reality; jihadists, of course, are indeed bent on suicide bombings. Candidates who exploit voters' fears and anxieties grab attention in a way that other appeals, such as those to experience, competence, vision or even anger (a close second to fear in its power to move voters) do not. "In politics, the emotions that really sway voters are hate, hope and fear or anxiety," says political psychologist Drew Westen of Emory University, author of the recent book "The Political Brain: The Role of Emotion in Deciding the Fate of the Nation." "But the skillful use of fear is unmatched in leading to enthusiasm for one candidate and causing voters to turn away from another."

That qualifying "skillful" underlines psychologists' more-sophisticated understanding of the use of fear in politics. New studies show that the genie of fear is most effective if let out of its bottle with more finesse than by yanking off the stopper and wildly flinging the contents all over Iowa and New Hampshire. Through surveys of voters, lab experiments that simulate voting and, now, brain-imaging studies that pinpoint which regions switch on when people weigh political decisions, a new generation of political psychologists and campaign strategists is refining the understanding of the power of fear. The result is new insights into how voters respond to having their anxieties stoked; how playing to fears and anxieties can affect voters' views on issues seemingly unrelated to those that incite fear; how fear is wielded most effectively as a scalpel rather than a cudgel, and how the power of fear can be squared with the political truism that the candidate who best projects hope tends to win.

It's as pointless for Obama or anyone else to rail against the use of fear to sway voters as it is to bemoan humans' inability to hear pitches as high as dogs can. The brain structure that processes perceptions and thoughts and tags them with the warning "Be afraid, be very afraid!" is the amygdala. Located near the brain's center, this almond-shaped bundle of neurons evolved long before the neocortex, the seat of conscious awareness. There is good reason for the fear circuitry to be laid down first, explains neuroscientist Joseph LeDoux of New York University. Any proto-humans who lacked a well-honed fear response did not survive long enough to evolve higher-order thinking; unable to react quickly and intuitively to rustling bushes or advancing shadows, they instead became some carnivore's dinner. Specifically, fear evolved because it promotes survival by triggering an individual to respond instantly to a threat—that is, without cogitating on it until the tiger has pounced. Human brains that detect fear and act on it "behave in ways that are ultimately in our interest," writes Westen in "The Political Brain." "They lead us to protect ourselves and our family."

The evolutionary primacy of the brain's fear circuitry makes it more powerful than the brain's reasoning faculties. The amygdala sprouts a profusion of connections to higher brain regions—neurons that carry one-way traffic from amygdala to neocortex. Few connections run from the cortex to the amygdala, however. That allows the amygdala to override the products of the logical, thoughtful cortex, but not vice versa. So although it is sometimes possible to think yourself out of fear ("I know that dark shape in the alley is just a trash can"), it takes great effort and persistence. Instead, fear tends to overrule reason, as the amygdala hobbles our logic and reasoning circuits. That makes fear "far, far more powerful than reason," says neurobiologist Michael Fanselow of the University of California, Los Angeles. "It evolved as a mechanism to protect us from life-threatening situations, and from an evolutionary standpoint there's nothing more important than that."

Fear is not only more powerful than reason, however. It is also (sometimes absurdly) easy to evoke for reasons that also lie deep in our evolutionary past. Reacting to a nonexistent threat, such as fleeing from what you thought was a venomous snake that turned out to be a harmless one, isn't as dangerous as failing to react to actual threats. The brain is therefore wired to flinch first and ask questions later. As the 18th-century political theorist Edmund Burke observed, "No passion so effectually robs the mind of all its powers of acting and reasoning as fear." And when a candidate reminds voters of their fears about one issue, it can have a powerful spillover effect: "Fear that you cannot provide for your family because of an economic downturn can translate into hatred for immigrants," notes Emory's Westen.

The results of targeting the amygdala in a way that overrides the thoughtful cortex can be ludicrous or tragic, but frequently irrational. In a classic experiment, scientists compared people's responses to offers of flight insurance that would cover "death by any cause" or "death by terrorism." The latter, of course, is but a small subset of the former. Yet the specificity of the word "terrorism," combined with the stark images the word evokes, triggers the amygdala's fear response in a way that "by any cause" does not. Result: people are willing to spend more for terrorism insurance than death-by-any-cause insurance. The power of fear to overrule reason would have come as no surprise to the late Supreme Court justice Louis Brandeis. When "men feared witches," he wrote in 1927, they "burned women."

Fear makes people more likely to go to the polls and vote, which reflects the power of negative emotions in general. "Negative emotions such as fear, hatred and disgust tend to provoke behavior more than positive emotions such as hope and happiness do," says Harvard Universitypsychology researcher Daniel Gilbert. Perhaps paradoxically, the power of fear to move voters can be most easily understood when it fails to—that is, when an issue lacks the ability to strike terror in citizens' hearts. Global warming is such an issue. Yes, Hurricane Katrina was a terrifying example of what a greenhouse world would be like, and Al Gore's "An Inconvenient Truth" scared some people into changing their light bulbs to energy-miserly models. But barely 5 percent of voters rank global warming as the issue that most concerns them. There is little public clamor to spend the kind of money that would be needed to change our energy mix to one with a smaller carbon footprint, or to make any real personal sacrifices.

A big reason is that global warming, as an issue, lacks the characteristics that trigger fear, says Gilbert. The human brain has evolved to fear humans and human actions (such as airplane bombers), not accidents and impersonal forces (carbon dioxide, even when it is the product of human activities). If global warming were caused by the nefarious deeds of an evil empire—lofting military satellites that deliver carbon dioxide into the stratosphere, say, rather than the "innocent" actions of people heating their homes and driving their children to school—"the war on warming would be this nation's top priority," Gilbert wrote in the Los Angeles Times.

Besides needing that human component, events loom scariest when they pose a threat next week, not next decade or beyond. Climate change is already here, but the worst of it would arrive if the Antarctic and Greenland ice sheets melt, which is decades away. "The brain is adapted to deal with the here and now," says Gilbert—the lethal-tusked mastodon right over there, not the herd of them that will migrate through your encampment next spring. It's little wonder, then, that warnings about the eventual insolvency of Medicare or Social Security fail to move voters, and that global warming "fails to trip the brain's alarm," he says. But the prospect of illegal immigrants' changing the face of neighborhoods today does.

The primitive nature of fear means that it can be triggered most powerfully not by wordy arguments but by images that make a beeline for the brain's emotion regions. In Lyndon Johnson's 1964 "daisy" commercial, for instance, a little girl plucking the petals off a flower suddenly hears a boom and sees, in the distance, a mushroom cloud. The voice-over intones, "These are the stakes … Vote for President Johnson"—and not, implicitly, nuclear-war-mongering Barry Goldwater. The power of the now iconic ad was such that LBJ's campaign ran it only once. Not only was the ad endlessly discussed, but the mushroom-cloud image was firmly embedded in voters' memories.

George W. Bush's media strategists used imagery to evoke fear effectively in the closing weeks of the 2004 campaign when they aired the "wolf" ad. It showed a pack of hungry-looking wolves in a dark forest, apparently about to attack, as a dulcet-toned female voice claimed that "John Kerry and the liberals in Congress voted to slash America's intelligence operations. By $6 billion. Cuts so deep they would have weakened America's defenses. And weakness attracts those who are waiting to do America harm." There is no question that raising primal fears of weakness, and scary carnivores with big teeth, pushed voters' fear buttons much more effectively than a straight-on recitation of Kerry's voting record would have.

Words that evoke images rather than abstractions are powerful triggers of fear, too. When making the case for invading Iraq in 2003, Bush asked America to "imagine with me this new fear"—as he raised the specter of the mushroom cloud, as LBJ had. "The key to emotional language is its simplicity and clarity," says Republican pollster Frank Luntz. "It has to be immediately believable and authentic. If it requires you to think, it's less powerful; if it requires you to explain, it's less powerful." The most effective fear-inducing language and images speak to the amygdala, not the cortex.

The "Willie Horton" ad that helped George H.W. Bush win the White House 12 years before his son stands out for its then-pioneering use of images, verbal and visual, to bore its way directly into the electorate's amygdala. Horton was serving a life sentence for murder in Massachusetts when he received a weekend pass from prison. While free, he stabbed a man and raped a woman, something Bush's ad tied to the prison-furlough policies of his opponent, Massachusetts Gov. Michael Dukakis. Brain-scanning techniques such as functional magnetic resonance imaging show that when whites—including those who profess not to be racist—view black faces, the more Afrocentric the face (darker skin, broader nose, Afro haircut), the more active the amygdala. Showing Horton's face was therefore much more powerful, and a greater incitement to fear, than just talking about him.

Fear fades, of course. Even New Yorkers who ran for their lives as the cloud of debris tore through the streets of the financial district on September 11 don't feel the acute terror they did in the immediate aftermath of the attacks. But memories of profoundly frightening experiences differ from other memories in a way that candidates can exploit. Most memories come with a date stamp, telling us when the event occurred. But when we store a terrifying memory, that mechanism fails. As a result, when we recall the memory, the event feels recent or even as if it were happening in the present. That's good news for Giuliani. He regularly invokes September 11, telling audiences that another attack is a virtual certainty ("I think probably the way I have to say it is, when we're attacked") and using vivid imagery to bring listeners back to that day. One of his fund-raisers in California asked supporters to contribute $9.11. (The campaign disavowed that ploy but did not return the money.)

Candidates who rely on crude scare tactics may be in for a surprise, however. New research has brought a more nuanced understanding of the power of fear: it can drive voters away from the protective authority figures who seem like its logical beneficiaries. Just days before Spanish voters went to the polls in March 2004, terrorists linked to Al Qaeda bombed four trains in Madrid, killing 191 people. Until then, polls had shown the ruling Conservatives leading their Socialist challengers. But when the ballots were counted, the Socialists had won, not the hard-liners who had enlisted in the U.S. War on Terror by sending troops to Iraq. That outcome reflected, in part, what happens when voters are reminded of the inevitability of death even by something as seemingly innocuous as passing a funeral cortege, let alone by 191 murdered commuters. That reminder makes people "go to ground" psychologically. That is, they become more committed to and identify more strongly with something that will endure long after they are gone. That can be an ideology, or it can be a larger entity such as one's nation, ethnicity or religion. In Spain, enough voters retreated to a Eurocentric, nationalistic world view opposing America's invasion of Iraq to tip the electoral balance.

Americans got their own brutal reminder of mortality before the 2004 election, but in this case American nationalism benefited the authority figure who had most effectively positioned himself as the nation's protector. In the final days of the race, most polls showed Kerry leading Bush by about 2 percentage points nationally and edging ahead in such key states as Ohio (50-46), Florida (49-45) and Iowa (48-47, according to the CNN/Gallup poll). On the Friday before voters went to the polls, however, the Arabic satellite channel Al-Jazeera broadcast excerpts from a videotape of Osama bin Laden speaking into the camera to Americans, proudly taking responsibility for September 11 and patronizingly explaining "the best way to avoid another Manhattan." Clips of the diatribe were broadcast repeatedly on American stations over the weekend and described in newspapers. Four days later, the president won re-election. Ohio, Florida and Iowa put him over the top. "When we're insecure, we want our leaders to have what's called an 'unconflicted personality'," says political psychologist Jeff Greenberg of the University of Arizona. "Bush was very clear in his beliefs and had no doubts, but Kerry was painted as a flip-flopper. Bush had another key advantage: he emphasized the greatness of the nation." Voters whose fears of terrorism were reignited by the bin Laden tape, and who reacted by seeking solace in an entity that would survive their own inevitable demise, found it in the idea of a strong, enduring America as promised by Bush.

That real-world observation has been replicated in lab studies. In one experiment Greenberg and colleagues ran during the 2004 campaign, volunteers who completed a questionnaire that reminded them about their own inevitable death (how thoughts of their own death made them feel and what they thought would happen to them physically after they died) expressed greater support for Bush than voters of similar leanings who were not reminded of mortality. The researchers also found that subliminal reminders of death increased support for Bush (and decreased support for Kerry) even among liberals. It's not clear if such responses in the lab would endure in an actual voting booth. So perhaps one should not be too cynical about the decision by the Department of Homeland Security to raise the terror-threat level on Election Day 2004. "Political use of fear is not something new," says NYU's LeDoux. "But certainly the ante has been upped. We've gone from 'vote for me or you'll end up poor' to 'vote for me or you'll end up dead'."

The effect of fear is not limited to obvious issues such as homeland security. It spills into other political judgments: fear drives voters to cling more desperately to all of their core values. For example, in one experiment volunteers who identified themselves as political conservatives were given reminders of mortality. After that prompt, they rated gay marriage, abortion and "sexual immorality" as greater threats to the nation than they had before the reminders. "When you remind people of their mortality, they defend their world view more strongly and reject those who challenge it," says Greenberg. By laying a foundation of fear and then raising cultural issues, the GOP in 2004 got more traction from the latter than they would have without the former.

That doesn't mean that evoking voters' fears will cause them all to support, say, security measures that trample civil liberties or American exceptionalism at the expense of international diplomacy. If a voter's world view values human rights and global cooperation, then activating his amygdala will make him more supportive of those traditionally liberal views. That response may have pushed voters into the Democrats' column in the 2006 elections despite Bush's warning that "the Democrat approach" means that "the terrorists win and America loses." Paradoxically, by playing to fears so crudely, Bush may have driven enough voters to embrace views associated with the Democrats to give them control of Congress.

The failure of brute-force scare tactics, of course, reflected the times, too: by 2006, more voters than in 2004 were fed up with the Iraq War and terrorism alerts that had begun to sound like crying wolf. But something more fundamental was at work. Simply put, candidates do themselves little good by reminding voters of their fears and leaving it at that, for evoking fears without also raising hopes is rarely a winning strategy. "Successful candidates understand voters' fears and anxieties and speak to it," says Matthew Dowd, a former political strategist for Bush and now a contributor to ABC News. "Clinton did this in 1992, saying he understood voters' anxieties about the economy better than Bush 41 did, and [George W.] Bush did it in 2004 when he said he understood their fears and anxieties related to terrorism and security." To close the deal, these successful candidates took the next step: Bill Clinton offered hope by vowing to address economic problems more competently than George H.W. Bush was doing, and the current president offered hope when he said he would protect Americans better than John Kerry could or would. "Politicians who speak only to the fear and anxiety part without transitioning to something more optimistic don't win," says Dowd. "You can't leave voters stuck in their fear and anxiety. If you tear the bandage off the wound, you need to salve it." Candidates who offer that salve have been moving up in the polls. Obama paints himself as a candidate of hope, recognizing voters' fears about, say, the fragility of health insurance but, crucially, taking the next step by offering a promise that things will improve if he wins the White House.

It works both ways. Just as fear without hope is seldom a winning strategy, so failing to remind voters of their fears can leave even the most optimistic candidate on the short end of the ballot count. "Voters need to believe you understand their fears and anxieties," says Dowd. "If you just give optimistic speeches, voters don't feel that you understand their circumstances." Obama's promises about universal health coverage will therefore gain traction only if he deftly invokes voters' fears about not having or losing coverage. John Edwards, after a period in which he came across as more angry than optimistic, has in recent weeks returned to his message of hope, particularly on the economic front. But if his "America Rising" message clicks, it will be in large part because he has long played to voters' fears of an economic downturn, or of falling into the poor one of his "two Americas."

A big unknown in this presidential race is how fear—of terrorism, of illegal immigration, of an economic downturn—will shape voters' decisions. Psychologists don't even agree on how another terrorist attack would affect voters: make them turn from the party of the president who failed to prevent it, or make them embrace Bush's GOP as the current symbol of national power and pride? What's clear, though, is that continued exposure to a threat that never materializes diminishes its hold on the amygdala. "Slowly, when what we have feared does not come to pass, our logic turns back on," says NYU's LeDoux. "The prefrontal cortex tells the amygdala to stand down." In Bush's final appeal for his party's candidates in the 2006 midterm elections, he said, "If you want this country to do everything in its power to protect you … vote Republican." That surely moved some voters into the GOP column, but for the majority—who returned control of Congress to the Democrats—the power of fear had dissipated. Something similar may partly explain why Giuliani's polling numbers have been falling recently, even as he continues to raise fears of the country's vulnerability to attack, and why Edwards reversed course to emphasize optimism once again even as he subtly reminds voters of all they are right to be afraid of. Ham-fisted scare tactics may have lost their power. But a candidate who neglects the fear factor should have a concession speech ready to go.

With Anne Underwood, Richard Wolffe and Suzanne Smalley on the campaign trail, and Jeneen Interlandi

© 2007

(Source: Newsweek.com, for educational purposes only)

Badminton

2010-01-26T22:46:00.000-08:00

  I am eternally grateful to my father who encouraged me to learn badminton at a tender age, although I have neither the talent, physical height nor commitment to match up with the school representatives, further paling in comparison with the state players, God still managed to reveal a couple of priceless treasures throughout the years.

  Mr Koo Kok Keng, the badminton guru that has taught me the trade is to me, an excellent coach. I still recall how my father took me to that hall on that fateful day, it is a scene to remember. There stands a very small sized fourteen year old child, with bookish spectacles on cum a slightly retarded facial appearance, holding on to a quite expensive carbon fiber racquet as long as his arm, with the coach probing the boy while giving some murmuring some comments to the father. Numbed by the excitement, the boy is as anxious as ever. The coach has bright eyes, short hair, compact stature and a very sinewy physique. His smile lights up the hall, and his powerful speeches floods our bodies with immense energy.

  He rhetorically preaches the unlimited power of the mind, and what the will can do. He often pushes us to the limit, and beyond. 'Do your footwork! Smash and rush forward to tap and repeat, 20 times, 3 sets on each side, then 30 times, 2 sets, block smash then speedily throw a cross court chop and repeat, then give me a full court run at all 6 corners, 30 times 5 sets... Done? 2 versus one, for the two person team, split positions, one forward and one backward, attack the guy for 15 minutes then rotate and change roles... YOU CALL THAT DEFENSE?! YOU PLAY LIKE A GIRL! See me play!! ...Tired? Match play! ...Done? 5 laps sprint!... (and while we were resting) Give me another 5 laps around the hall! Whoever runs slower than 2 minutes will be punished! ...(and while we were clambering on to invisible ropes like resurrecting zombies on the floor) Give me another 5 laps!! .....(and when we thought hell was over..) Okay, 50 push ups 3 sets, 50 sit ups 3 sets or don't go home!'

  I truly thank God for him, because it is through him that I understood the essence of mind over matter. Most limits are illusions and they are meant to be broken! And when I applied this to my studies, reading book after book as if if I paused, an imaginary shadow will lunge out and tear me into shreds, who knew it worked so well! I conclude that it's prodigiously beneficial to endeavor into a similar training of that military nature to inculcate mental determination in life as the bulwark against indolence that has sealed up all the wonderful potential within each and everyone of us.

  He also taught me that practice makes perfect, and technical perfection is just the minimum standard that one should achieve when facing real matches, because any technical imperfection of which is supposedly preventable will be exploited immediately by the opponent. With discipline and some rote training, everyone can achieve technical mastery. Techniques like lobbing, smashing, dropping, chopping, net play and defense are actually analogous to the skills we have in daily life. We should be experts of knowledge by reading habitually so to not be deceived, rather living as avengers of the truth which will set people free from suffering. How can we help others when we are deficient in knowledge? What impact do our lives have if our daily activities are comprised of online chit-chatting, routine jobs and meaningless entertainment? Practice makes perfect. If one practices paltry things, will not one be an expert of ignorance? Knowledge is the minimum standard to survive in life.

  Lastly, I learnt that having perfect techniques is not enough, because a game of badminton is truly a survival of the fittest, and the fittest are geniuses at contriving a myriad of solutions to problems under immense stress. All strategies must be taught out carefully, and every placement of the shuttle are in fact split second decisions towards realizing the strategies. And expert players change their strategies lightning fast to adapt to the conditions of the game. When an approach does not win marks, one must innovate tactics and adapt, or lose the match. A game comprising of long rallies is a sign of quality as the players are continuously changing and adapting their style of play against each other. Expert players are masters of reading one's mind and body language, and they adapt so effortlessly to respond to one's style, exploiting every weak point, and if one fails to respond with a winning strategy, the game is over as soon as it began. Life is in some aspects, like a badminton game. It is not like school, where things are in their orthodox and inflexible nature. Practical experience in life is dynamic. Adapt or be destroyed. So what's the use of good grades if one lacks the creative ability to solve practical problems faced everyday? Can one survive if left alone in the buzzing metropolis, undeveloped countryside or in a wild habitat? Flexibility comprises of sociability, decisiveness and tolerance that is so precious in glorifying God by living life purposefully.

  I have been training with him for a long time now, and I do hope that he will live happily with his newly wedded wife. Thank you Ah Keng! I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've done that may have disappointed you.

Are People Indispensable?

2010-01-21T18:50:00.000-08:00

American Idol is about to lose Simon Cowel. Will American Idol cease to prosper? Or will the show go on without him? It's about time to ask the question 'Are People Indispensable?' My personal opinion is this, people are functionally dispensable, but sentimentally indispensable.

Functional dispensability means that tasks can be done by different people, and it's not exclusive to one particular person. In the world of science, continual advancements in technology and scientific knowledge is the result of cumulative contributions made by a myriad of scientist. We'll never run out of intellectuals, and hence never run out of bright ideas. Problems will be solved, and discoveries will be made, either one way or another; it's only a matter of time. The contributions of great figures like Isaac Newton and Albert Einstein will be replicated, as like all human beings, we share the potential to achieve greatness. In the realm of pedagogy, teachers come and go, but their function as a source of guidance and information will for ever so long be taken up by many other teachers to be. There will forever be better teachers out there, and this applies to all students alike. So never condescend another human being, everyone has the potential to think big and kick ass either in one aspect or another. Companies usually survive after they sack people, proving that you are not the only person that can do your job well, there are always other people that can do your job and replace you, therefore one should always be humble and grateful, avoid arrogance and persistently seek to improve, never settling for less that what you can be, for the competition is strong and only the fittest will survive.

Sentimental indispensability concerns the irreplaceability of your love ones in life. It is caused by the uniqueness of every individual and the distinctive physical, mental and spiritual connections between people. For example, no one can replace our family. All the good and bad times that we go through together will be forever etched in our memories. No one can truly replace our spouse. The memories of the places we've been, emotions we've experienced and fights we've gone thorough are all unique. True, friends come and go, but each friend leaves a connection that is fundamentally sui generis. The flow of physical, mental and spiritual love exists amongst us, and it's a sin to obstruct the flow by being unappreciative and antisocial. Many people has shown their love for us by giving us many things, it's only right that we sacrifice our own interests for others by serving our loved ones through an unconditional love. It's even more commendable to endeavor loving your enemies.

People are forever more important that work, knowledge, prestige or wealth, because without friends, life becomes devoid of meaning and satisfaction becomes a fantasy. I hope that everyone benefited from this short post.

The Youth is Wasted on the Young!!

2010-01-20T21:59:00.000-08:00

While I watched 'So you think you can dance?!' season finale, the fourth seed, Courtney, when denied the privilege of being the most favorite dancer in America, exclaimed to the audience, 'There's an old saying, the youth is wasted on the young, that definitely did not happen to me!.' How many youngsters can say the same thing? I hope we all reflect daily on what we've done in life so to not have this curse fulfilled upon us and make our lives, the most beautiful dance routine ever!

Can Boys and Girls be Best Friends?

2010-01-20T20:13:00.000-08:00

  Sure they can if they are lovers, but what if they're not? What if they have no interest in falling in love? Can they just have an innocent friendship? What if it is about being best friends with the opposite sex even when one's in love with one's spouse? This is a very debatable topic. It must not be treated lightly. After all, why did Neytiri dumped Tsu'tey for Jake Sully?

  My parents, amongst many other conservatives gives a definite 'NO!' for an answer. First, if they are not lovers, there's the danger of falling in love and getting hurt. Second, if they are already in a relationship, there's the danger of being unfaithful. Third, if they are already married, there's a the grave danger of adultery, divorce and destruction of the family institute. Therefore under all possible conditions, this practice should be forbidden as no one can withstand the powers of temptation. Overall, it's a dangerous habit to meet someone of an opposite gender regularly as the invisible threads of passion will wind imperceptibly round and round the two until both are trapped in an inescapable cocoon of emotions, alas adultery, family disputes and discrimination looms as inevitable consequences. It's best not to endeavor making friends with the opposite sex.

   On the other hand, the liberals shouts a reverberating 'YES!!'. Firstly, if they are not lovers, just fall in love! Practice makes perfect! Experience is the key towards success! Is it not wrong to deprive people of fun in life? Secondly, if they are already in a relationship, is it wrong to fall in love with another more suitable candidate? It only proves that the first relationship is unworthy of a brighter future. Thirdly, if they are married, and they find love, comfort and appreciation in another person, just get a divorce! It's so easy to get it these days. Plus it's so common, it's a fashionable trend! Everybody's doing it! It's not a shame anymore! Why live like a dinosaur? Embrace the modern life of 21st century! It's my life! I have the right to live as I please!

  Well, I'm a moderationist. I believe that it's acceptable to be normal friends, even good friends, with the opposite gender. But my limit is not being close friends or best friends. I have my boundaries. I have my rules, and the most important one is never be alone in any time or space with a girl, unless under special circumstances like carpooling, visiting the sick, and she outside the range of plus minus 10 years my age. I hope Newton won't sue me for this but, 'For every action there's an equal and opposite consequence.' God is the Judge and the Master of the Universe. He's in control. He rewards the righteous and punishes the wicked. Bear in mind, WE will be facing the results of our actions. Worse still, the people around us may have to suffer for our pigheadedness. It's wrong to have either of the two of us getting hurt. It's even wrong to have our loved ones getting hurt. We must take into consideration the feelings of the people around us! It's wrong to have our loving God, family and friends worry for us when we live selfishly as we please.

  We're growing up, that's a fact. Time to grow out of ignorance and forge our own opinions, beliefs and convictions. I hope that which ever stand you take, God will guide you back towards the righteous path, like the way he guided me by punishing me in the past for going too far, and rewarding me with the love of my life, if I had one.

Worries, Anxieties and Stress

2010-01-20T18:28:00.000-08:00

  While I am driving on the way to work, this topic pops up in the 'Group Therapy Session' on Light FM. The psychologist Paul Jay from Monash Sunway University who acts as the counselor shares many enlightening knowhow.

  Regarding the effects of worrying too much, it's detrimental to one's physical and mental health in many ways. The mind immersed in a perpetual downward spiral of worries, anxieties and stress loses it's focus on solving problems, of which is of utmost importance, while having this devastation reflected on the body via immunosuppression, illness from fevers to cancers emerges. One with a depressed mind coupled with a maimed physique has a fleeting life.

  So what's the solution? Some might resort to daily prayer and meditation. Some might seek professional counselors. Some might even take the commendable step of giving positive meanings to seemingly negative happenings. One strategy recommended by Paul deems surprising, he suggests that we all allocate a specific time everyday dedicated to worrying! Bravo! A great strategy of profound implications, literally realizing 'effective worrying', an art that makes worrying beneficial.

  First by limiting the time of worrying, we'll avoid many detrimental side effects and have more time to solve problems. Listing down our worries helps us to identify specifically the things that really matters so to help us prioritize and organize our tasks. We'll even avoid unnecessary stress by postponing our worries! This is truly marvelous!

  Alas, I hope that everyone will start worrying in a constructive manner.

Making SMARTER Goals

2010-01-15T07:12:00.001-08:00

Goals channel your energy and time into a focused beam that helps you hit target after target, hence people that set many goals in life are productive and contributive. It is therefore imperative to plan towards making smarter goals. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail! Failing does not mean that lightning will strike on you for delays in your schedule, rather, it signals the lost of freedom. If you fail to plan your life, you'll be in someone else's plan. You'll be a pawn in someone else's game, with others dictating your every move, forever subordinative, unable to follow your preferences, like a prisoner held by invisible chains.

So, what's a smart goal?

A smart goal is a Specific goal.
Goals must be Measurable.
Actions to achieve the goal must be specified.
There must be Reasons behind goals
A Time-line must be specified
The process of achieving the goal should be Enjoyable
Resources to achieve the goal must be provided

Effective Reading

2009-12-29T07:54:00.000-08:00

Same steps like the last post. ^^

Effective English

2009-12-29T07:43:00.000-08:00

Step one: Design your very own book mark with the following as a guide.

Step two: Follow the instructions on the bookmark. ^^

Critism

2009-12-24T06:19:00.000-08:00

I read an article on newsweek regarding praising children, or anyone actually, including yourself. I learnt that there are two types of praise, 'person praise' and 'process praise'. For example, after someone has solved a problem, we usually flatter them by saying 'You are so smart!!!!!!'. That's 'person praise'. 'Process praise' goes like 'That's a smart move!!!!!!'.

Psychologist undertook experiments on the effects of the approach employed and found out that the 'process praise' encouraged more persistence in solving future problems compared to 'person praise' in the subjects. Perhaps it's because that when a person is praised directly, arrogance ensues and that abates the passion for self-improvement. The person is finds no need to improve oneself. Overconfidence will eventually lead to ignorance and errs in the future.

On the other hand, 'process praise' will only send the message that the moves made were correct. The person will strive to solve more problems to gain sweet praise. The focus will be on solving problems, not so much on improving self-esteem, which may lead to a flawed character. This should be the form of praise used in positive conditioning, that is, a method of learning new habits.

Negative criticism works in the same way. 'Person critiques' debilitates self-esteem, leading to weak performance whilst 'process critiques' leads to creativity and perseverance.

My experience with criticism has lead me to notice the importance of adjusting the quality and quantity of criticism according to the situation. Regarding the quality of one's criticism, as a rule of thumb, people that are well educated and has a good character generally give good advice. Will you take the comments from your professor lightly? One should pursue knowledge and adopt an ethical behavior, or avoid giving senseless comments all together that reveal ignorance and immaturity.

The quantity of criticism is an equally important aspect. Too much criticism jeopardizes human relations whereas too little brings only a minor impact. Criticism of a moderate amount accompanied by relevant comments, be it negative or positive in nature, is constructive.

Hence from a practical perspective, this knowledge can be utilized in self-criticism or in criticizing others. With the right approach, human performance can be improved without incurring negative attitudes. I hope that this information proved to be useful. ^^

Pornography

2009-12-21T20:36:00.000-08:00

Jesus preached,

"You have heard that it was said,
'Do not commit adultery.'
But I tell you that anyone who looks at a someone lustfully
has already committed adultery with that someone in their heart.

If your right eye causes you to sin,
gouge it out and throw it away.
It is better for you to lose one part of your body
than for your whole body to be thrown into hell.

And if your right hand causes you to sin,
cut it off and throw it away.
It is better for you to lose one part of your body
than for your whole body to go into hell."

Thus,

Pornography is vile!
Noxiously disgusting!

Worse than bitter bile,

Utterly sickening!

By capitalizing on the fruits of marriage,
and marring the sanctity of sex,
it transforms the Child into a beastly savage,

leaving many vexed.

It fills the body with ceaseless urges,
It fills the mind with filthy motives,
It fills the soul with the Devil's lances!
Corralling the Child in a dire riff!

Like a drug, uncontrollably addictive;
Like a poison, seeping and debilitating;
Like a ticking-time bomb, dormant explosive;
Destroying from within, whilst still in a dream.

While hiding atrocities in the twilight,
The Hypocrite's Cup emanates a deceiving sheen.
Clean the cup from the inside!
Then the cup is truly clean.

Fear the Lord your God!
Beware of His despise for sin and terrible judgement;

Revere Him and obey His ways or be disciplined;

Repent and accept His promised eternal love.

Can the mind defend against evil?
Can the body defend against the world?
Can the soul defend against the Devil?

Bereft of hope, the Child is in a shivering curl.

Where is salvation?

If not in God?

不要怕，只要信

2009-12-13T06:32:00.000-08:00

⁶ 他远远的看见耶稣，就跑过去拜他，
⁷ 大声呼叫说：至高神的儿子耶稣，我与你有甚麽相干？我指着神恳求你，不要叫我受苦！
⁸ 是因耶稣曾吩咐他说：污鬼阿，从这人身上出来罢！

9 耶稣问他说：你名叫甚麽？回答说：我名叫群，因为我们多的缘故；
¹⁰ 就再三的求耶稣，不要叫他们离开那地方。
¹¹ 在那里山坡上，有一大群猪吃食；
¹² 鬼就央求耶稣说：求你打发我们往猪群里，附着猪去。
¹³ 耶稣准了他们，污鬼就出来，进入猪里去。於是那群猪闯下山崖，投在海里，淹死了。猪的数目约有二千。
¹⁴ 放猪的就逃跑了，去告诉城里和乡下的人。众人就来，要看是甚麽事。
¹⁵ 他们来到耶稣那里，看见那被鬼附着的人，就是从前被群鬼所附的，坐着，穿上衣服，心里明白过来，他们就害怕。
¹⁶ 看见这事的，便将鬼附之人所遇见的和那群猪的事都告诉了众人；
¹⁷ 众人就央求耶稣离开他们的境界。
¹⁸ 耶稣上船的时候，那从前被鬼附着的人恳求和耶稣同在。
¹⁹ 耶稣不许，却对他说：你回家去，到你的亲属那里，将主为你所做的是何等大的事，是怎样怜悯你，都告诉他们。
²⁰ 那人就走了，在低加波利传扬耶稣为他做了何等大的事，众人就都希奇。

²¹ 耶稣坐船又渡到那边去，就有许多人到他那里聚集；他正在海边上。
²² 有一个管会堂的人，名叫睚鲁，来见耶稣，就俯伏在他脚前，
²³ 再三的求他，说：我的小女儿快要死了，求你去按手在他身上，使他痊愈，得以活了。
²⁴ 耶稣就和他同去。有许多人跟随拥挤他。
³⁵ 还说话的时候，有人从管会堂的家里来，说：你的女儿死了，何必还劳动先生呢？
³⁶ 耶稣听见所说的话，就对管会堂的说：不要怕，只要信！
³⁷ 於是带着彼得、雅各、和雅各的兄弟约翰同去，不许别人跟随他。
³⁸ 他们来到管会堂的家里；耶稣看见那里乱嚷，并有人大大的哭泣哀号，
³⁹ 进到里面，就对他们说：为甚麽乱嚷哭泣呢？孩子不是死了，是睡着了。
⁴⁰ 他们就嗤笑耶稣。耶稣把他们都撵出去，就带着孩子的父母，和跟随的人进了孩子所在的地方，
⁴¹ 就拉着孩子的手，对他说：大利大，古米！ ? 出来就是说：闺女，我吩咐你起来！
⁴² 那闺女立时起来走。他们就大大的惊奇；闺女已经十二岁了。
⁴³ 耶稣切切的嘱咐他们，不要叫人知道这事，又吩咐给他东西吃。
（马可福音 5：21-24，35-43）

上个星期天传道提起耶稣渡船越过了湖，医治了格拉森人，把附在他身上的鬼群赶出来。鬼群为了防止耶稣格拉森传杨神的话，要求耶稣让他们附到猪群中，故意使猪群跳崖自杀，让当地的人因受损失而赶走耶稣。但最终魔鬼失败了，因为被医治的那人把耶稣的好消息传遍低加坡里（Decapolis) ,那就是十个城市，证明神是最后的胜利者。今天张传道与我们分享耶稣接下来行的奇迹，那就是因耶稣而从死里复活的女孩。
耶稣又坐船越湖，一到岸就被人群围绕。当中有个管会堂的人，名叫睚鲁，一见到耶稣就俯伏在他面前求耶稣救他快要死的女孩。
这件事非比寻常。在那时候，耶稣的确是被社会中较低阶级的人受欢迎。耶稣常常在他们当中医病敢鬼，传扬福音，无论到何去都被人群缠绕。但耶稣常责备会堂管理层的法利赛人与文士，因他们假冒为善，滥用权力，自偏种种不符合神心意的法律欺压弱小无辜的人，自己且赚取利润。明显睚鲁，一个管会堂的人与耶稣作对，为何在公共场合向耶稣下跪？
我们可在当中学习到一个很重要的功课。肯定当时后有许许多多的人也在向耶稣求助，为何耶稣把那管会堂的人之要求放在首位？当然神有绝对主权选择是否要催听我们的祷告。神无所不知，也按我们的好处与祂的计划决定如何回应我们的祷告。但当我们抱着像睚鲁的态度来向神祈求，走投无路了，放下自尊，冒着风险，为了他人而非自己的好处，认定神为唯一的拯救，向祂的带领寄托完全的信心与肯定；我们的祷告，神绝不轻看。
耶稣心动了，一句不说，马上和他同去，不料从会堂来了个仆人说：‘你女儿死了！何必还麻烦老师呢？’ 耶稣就对管会堂地说：‘不要怕，只要信！’
身为基督徒，无可否认我们面对困境当儿都会常用这句话来互相勉励。但我们真的了解耶稣所说的这话吗？
祂是在说：‘不要怕，你女儿没死，只要信我会把他救活！’吗？这不太可能，因为当管会堂的离家时，他女儿已经快要死了，随时会死，半途来的仆人也不太可能会拿他主人女儿的死当玩笑；主管的女儿的确是死了。
祂是在说：‘不要怕，你女儿虽死，但只要信我会把他从死里救活！’吗？这也不太可能，因为管会堂的要求是请耶稣救他在病中挣扎的女儿，而非请耶稣叫女儿从死里复活。
耶稣说的‘不要怕’，是叫我们别因现在的困境而孱弱怯懦，失去信心。
耶稣说的‘只要信’，是提醒管会馆的别失去他当初对耶稣能救他女儿的信心。信心是有基础的！信心的基础若是建立在目前的患难，绝不能成立，反而这基础应该建立于神过去的带领，从中显明祂的信实于恩典。回想过去，不管我们处在任何困境，神都与我们同在，陪我们度过，赐我们力量与智慧在患难中成长。不但如此，我们还没来到世上，圣经已经记载了几千年的历史，启示神在时间与空间里实现的种种应许，显明了神的可靠性，让人无法抵赖！如今神道成肉身，降世为人，向我们应许未来的审判于新天新地，让我们的信心也能建立在充满无限盼望的未来。
总而言之，耶稣是说：‘不要怕你现在所面对的一切难题，只要相信神的信实与全能，以神过去的带领与未来的应许为基础！’
耶稣到了睚鲁的家，看见那里乱嚷, 并有人大大的哭泣哀号。其实犹太人的习俗于我们华人很相似，每个人要在丧礼哭得越大声越好，从而表示对死者的爱有多深，有的还花钱请人来哭闹。基督徒传统上是带着喜乐的心情来参加丧礼，为了庆祝死者安息主怀，享受永生。无论如何，当耶稣说睚鲁的女儿还没死，是睡着了，他们就讥笑耶稣。
神的计划绝不会因人的讥笑，侮辱与小信而不成就。当他们看见那女孩活着出来当儿，肯定羞愧无比！

High School Part 1: Why Study?

2009-12-05T02:13:00.000-08:00

Why do you study? Iron Man has his ‘Iron Heart’; Spider Man has his Mary Jane. What is your motivation? Apollo 11 needs fuel to reach the Moon. You need motivation to get four flat. First, identify your fuel source, understand its characteristics, or risk floating in space for eternity, achieving nothing in millennia.

Perhaps you study to make God happy. The universe is incomprehensibly complex, yet balanced with laws which we just begin to fathom. It has a chaotic order, or orderly chaos, like the many ingenious inventions of mankind: The universe is the creation of a genius mind! Everything has a source, and God is the ultimate source. From creation, we know the existence of God. This is the general revelation of His presence. From the Bible, we know the character of God. This is the special revelation of His attributes. We know who is God only through reading the Bible.

"And he passed in front of Moses, proclaiming, "The LORD, the LORD, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin. Yet he does not leave the guilty unpunished; he punishes the children and their children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation." (Exodus 34:6-7)

An invention exists to please its owner. Thus man exists to please his Creator by doing what He says, and studying diligently is one way to give glory to God. The following is one of His many instructions. Jesus, God incarnate, said this in the Bible.

‘ Then he(Jesus) told this parable: "A man had a fig tree, planted in his vineyard, and he went to look for fruit on it, but did not find any. So he said to the man who took care of the vineyard, 'For three years now I've been coming to look for fruit on this fig tree and haven't found any. Cut it down! Why should it use up the soil?'

" 'Sir,' the man replied, 'leave it alone for one more year, and I'll dig around it and fertilize it. If it bears fruit next year, fine! If not, then cut it down.' (Luke 13:6-8)

God wants us to treasure our lives; like a tree treasures the land which it sinks its roots. The tree which bears no fruit is a waste of precious land. Will not the man cut it down and throw it into the fire? Uselessness invites destruction! If we take our lives for granted, we will face God’s judgment.

Perhaps you study to please the people around you. You make your parents and lecturers proud. You inspire your siblings and peers. Through education, ignorance is obliterated and knowledge grants you the power to achieve greatness in the future! And this greatness enables you to contribute in advancing the human kind, or in the very least, grants you the ability to help people in need. Good education usually translates into a successful career. Earn as much money as you can, to help those in need!

‘When a poor person dies of hunger, it has not happened because God did not take care of him or her.
It has happened because neither you nor I wanted to give that person what he or she needed.’ (Mother Teresa)

Perhaps you study to please yourself. Good grades give you many things don’t they? It gives you recognition, power, status, a bright future, respect, love, friends and money among others. These things seem to fill ‘The Hole of Emptiness’ within us.

Conclusively, unless you have identified a source of motivation, you will never move forward. You’ll most probably just stay where you are and waste another 2 years of your life in Form 6. It’s the most basic requirement in getting good grades. Personally I’d prefer the first motive, as it is the most reliable. People always end up disappointing you; you yourself can be weak and collapse under pressure; Material things decay and fade away; Power and money can vanish in a blink of an eye; But the One True God is the most faithful and loving being in existence, it’s worth knowing Him.

High School Part 3: Techniques

2009-12-05T01:46:00.000-08:00

After one has pinpointed a fuel source and recognized the importance of holistic well being, it is time to master ‘The Martial Arts of Studying’. This work is a compilation of the secret techniques top students use in achieving excellence. Basically, one starts by briefly reading through chapters before lectures, listening to the emphasis made during lectures, clarify any incomprehension, making one’s own notes after the lectures, and end everything with some question and answers. This whole process is called studying hard. It is the first component in getting good grades, by helping one to convert short-term memory to long-term memory through repeatedly going through the same contents again and again. It works in SPM, but does not work well in STPM! In STPM, you need to study hard, and study smart. Miss any one component and you’ll suffer more than necessary in achieving the same results. Studying smart is the catalyst you need!

1. Reading

First, you’ll have to read the text. In PA, BI, KI or MT, you have to read! Read before and after lectures. Currently English and Bahasa Malaysia are the main languages used to convey information. How well do you master these two languages? Communication is like the many ways of producing art. To paint your reality precisely, or to understand reality accurately, with speed and dexterity, you must get familiar with your painting tools and own a variety of colors. To understand text, or to answer long essay questions, you must have proficiency in your language, be it in grammar or vocabulary. Grammar is like the painting techniques and tools, you must use the right techniques and the right tools under suitable situations. It’s a very delicate skill and requires one to invest much effort in perfecting it. Vocabulary is like the colors one uses in painting. The more colors you have, the more accurate and vibrant your painting will become. Can you paint a portrait of your family with only 2 colors and a broken brush? Your work will be like a pre-school scribble! So can you use pre-school level English in Pre-University? And if you use crayons like you use watercolor, like you use English like Chinese, can you produce good art? Certainly not! Remember this, different languages have different grammar. So please brush up on your grammar and vocabulary! The better you are at your English or BM, the easier you’ll form ideas, and the better you’ll be able to express yourself. How do you do that? Listen, speak, read and write with it everyday! To produce good art, you must absorb good art by studying the artworks of great masters. If you have absorbed nothing, what can you produce?

2. Taking Notes

During lectures, it is important to listen attentively. I do not mean hearing, because hearing usually means that the words fly out of your head the same way they went in. Why listen? Why respect boring lecturers? There are 2 reasons. They are experienced. These are people who know the gist of topics in STPM. Okay maybe you’ll say that you don’t need to respect them if they are newbies. That brings us to the second reason. It is ethical to respect your teachers. Love others as you would love yourself. That’s a golden rule in good social skills. It applies in business, friendships, and even conflict resolutions. If you want others to love you, you must first love others. The way you handle with minute responsibilities reflects how you will deal with big responsibilities. Those who can love people who do not deserve it will certainly be given great opportunities in life. They will be blessed with good friends everywhere they go.

Note down the emphasis of the lecturers. Topics in STPM are wide. Some parts are prone to be tested in STPM. Identify them. But most students can’t even get what the lecturers are saying. They speak like machine guns! With unlimited ammo! How do you solve this problem? Read ahead. Understand the general idea first. Brush up on your listening skills. Watch discovery channel an hour a day. Go for tuition, they usually teach at a more comfortable pace there.

After lectures, make your own notes in your own words! If you can’t express yourself in your own words that means you have not understood the topic. Understanding has been covered in part two. In addition to that, the key to good note making is to summarize the text according to the emphasis from the lecturer and exercises. Now it’s time to study smart. Firstly, why not use both sides of your brain when you study? I strongly recommend that you buy some stabilo 0.4 color pens for taking notes, because colors activate your right brain and you’ll remember things 78% better. I’ll introduce 3 note taking techniques. The Outline Method, the Cornell Method, and Mind Mapping. (Reference: http://www.study-skills.ca/blog)

For the outline method, start at the left and note down the main topic. Note down subtopics and then the details. Less important points are continuously indented to the right. The outline method outlines the main topic, sub topic and details with great simplicity. It is easily understood and easily executed. This enables you to focus on the lecture while taking notes. I suggest that you redo your notes at home with colors, adding marks, bullets, dashes, arrows, even cartoon drawings. These will make learning fun and you’ll remember better. You can even create questions to test yourself from the sub topics! However, it does not show sequential relationships and it does not work well during fast paced lectures. Experiment on different note taking techniques and identify the ones that suites you the best. To me, it is suitable to be used in PA: K1, BI, KI, and MT.

Reference: http://www.stabilo.com/imwc/outline.htm

For the Cornell method, divide a paper into 3 sections, the note-taking, keyword, and summary sections. Approximately 2 inches from the bottom of your paper, draw a horizontal line all the way across the page. Approximately 2.5 inches from the left side of your paper, draw a vertical line from the top to the horizontal line you have just drawn. Or you can just use the PDF generator on this website: http://eleven21.com/notetaker/ to generate your notes. It’ll save you a lot of time. Now just follow the six R’s of note-taking.

Record: Record your notes in the note taking section. Capture the main points by using abbreviations. Don’t mind your grammar too much, just make sure you understand your notes after class.
Reduce: Extract keywords from your notes and jot them down in the keyword section.
Recapitulate: Summarize each page at the bottom section.
Recite: Read your notes aloud. This activates many muscles in your body. This activation brings your energy up, drives the nerves deeper, you’ll retain memory better. That’s why you’ll remember presentations you made better.
Reflect: Analyze your notes. Compare it with the big picture. Identify its significance.
Review: Review your notes frequently. Repetition is the mother of success. It’s the only way to convert short term memory to long term memory.

For example:

Reference: http://homeworkhelpblog.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/06/cornell-layout.jpg

The Cornell method is very suitable in showing sequential relationships, so it can be used in PA: K1, BI, and KI.

Lastly, I’ll introduce the method of mind mapping. After trying it, to me, it is as it claims, the best note taking method ever! The following are Tony Buzan’s own answers, is the creator of the mind mapping technique. What is a mind map? The mind map is a thinking tool that reflects externally what goes on inside your head. It’s like a Swiss army knife for the brain, anything you want it to do, be it contemplation, cognition, remembering or creating, the mind map is the ideal tool for it. It is straight forward and fun! Start at the center of a blank page, connect branches to the central image, and then connect second and third level branches to the first and second level branches and so on. The brain is radiant. It thinks centrally and explodes out in all directions. Branches are curved, not tapered; organic and free flowing as opposed to structured and uniformed. The mind map reflects the imaginations and associations of the mind. The traditional note taking method of lists and lines is counter productive because it does not show the associations and connections. Therefore one will not have memory and thinking! The branches are curved, because nature is curved. Rigidity and similarity are boring and the brain becomes unhappy. The brain is very much absorbed and intrigued by the beauty of curvature.

It’s best to use one word per branch. Why? Because that allows the word to be free to radiate many other points. Two words stuck together like glue is rigid and prohibits creativity. Single words provide more clarity and freedom. The length of the word should be the length of the branch. When words are placed closely side by side, the meeting point is close, hence in space, they are close, and therefore connected.

We are thought not to use color in school. However all the research shows that the people who use colors and images inevitably to better in imagination, learning and memory. One should use key words and key images throughout your mind map. Simple sketches will do the trick. An image in the mind is a picture on a paper, and a picture is worth a thousand words. All great geniuses use association and images. Leonardo did it, Darwin did it, Beethoven did it.. A mind map is the process that helps you do that. It’s a genius tool.

Start in the CENTRE of a blank page turned sideways. Why? Because starting in the centre gives your Brain freedom to spread out in all directions and to express itself more freely and naturally.
Use an IMAGE or PICTURE for your central idea. Why? Because an image
Use COLOURS throughout. Why? Because colours are as exciting to your Brain as are images. Colour adds extra vibrancy and life to your Mind Map, adds tremendous energy to your Creative Thinking, and is fun!
CONNECT your MAIN BRANCHES to the central image and connect your second- and third-level branches to the first and second levels, etc. Why? Because your Brain works by
Make your branches CURVED rather than straight-lined. Why? Because having nothing but straight lines is
Use ONE KEY WORD PER LINE. Why Because single key words give your Mind Map more power and flexibility.

For example,

Reference: http://www.buzanworld.com/5_Brain_Principles.htm

Mind maps help you to come up with a lot of points. Hence it is perfect for essay writing. Suitable subjects include PA: K2, BI: K2, KI: K2 and MU.

3. Questions and Answers

After understanding the topics and making notes, it’s time to test one’s understanding. Doing a lot of exercises in a regular scheduled manner is very important. A good student must be good at assimilating and expressing knowledge. Most students only emphasize either one of these. What good is there to only be able to understand, but unable to express one’s understanding during exams? And what good is there to only do exercises without first understanding the underlying principles tested? The former is like a foundation without a house. The latter, like a house without foundations.

Exercises must contain model answers. Only then can one understand how one should answer the given exercise. After thoroughly examining the answering techniques, answer the question with your own words without reference. Trial and error is a waste of time. Why reinvent the light bulb? Aim for peak efficiency by learning directly from the experts. Once becoming an expert, lets not be like that E.T. alien whose head is big and body puny. Share one’s knowledge with friends! Freely receive and freely give.

The exercises must be kept as an easily revisable collection for use in exam preparations. The rationale is, during the last minute revisions, one needs informational input from revising notes, and informational output models from exercises. Both ways must be mastered. Neglect neither. Get into the peak state of a good assimilator and teacher of knowledge. The exercises must be done in a note taking fashion, best organized with sections and color codes. Why not create your own innovative format?

4. Studying habits

Condition good study habits into ones daily life style. Train oneself to associate pleasure with studying and pain with not studying. One has reached the age of independence. Take responsibility for one’s life. Can you still survive on parental motivation? Be proactive and self-motivated, before it’s too late. Practice an activity daily for about a month, and your neuromuscular system will go autopilot. A new habit is learnt! Use the reward and punishment method to associate constructive rationales and emotions towards studying. For example, give yourself a cookie after studying for half an hour. If you did not study for the whole day, request your parents to cut your allowance. Creativity accompanied by good self-control should do the trick!

5. Group Study

Lastly, more brains are better than one. Explore the powers of teamwork through group study! Moving on to University life, say goodbye to tuition. The best way to get good grades in University is through group study. Solo acts are less productive. Why not familiarize with the trade earlier? By concentrating the greatest minds of their time in their capitals, The Islamic empire of the turn of the last millennia flourished. They engaged in research and constructive debates. As a result, much ancient knowledge are preserved in the translation movement, as well as improved by contemporary scholars, illustrating the powers unleashed when great minds gather. We should do the same. Gather great minds together. Appoint leaders. Cooperation makes less work and more results. Social groups make studying fun and exciting. Presentations amongst group members help improve memory and understanding whilst building confidence and charisma. Fun study games with reward and punishment is a good form of positive conditioning in the pursuit of knowledge.

These are just humble suggestions to reap the most out of one’s high school years. I hope you all will get creative and think of many more ways to get better grades, and a better life.

High School Part 2: Health

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One needs to be healthy spiritually, mentally and physically to live to the fullest. There are four aspects of well-being.

1. The Soul

The soul must be healthy. This is the most important aspect of health. It’s the foundation of all the other aspects, as the soul is the fountain of life. We usually spend very little time to care for our soul. No doubt everyone seeks meaning in life. This desire moves people to fill the seemingly depthless void in our hearts. Some people tried materialism, yet they are never satisfied. Some tried social networks, but imperfect people can never avoid disappointing you. Some even tried religion, but a faith without rational basis is superstitious and will never do the job. Most believe without researching the legitimacy of one's faith. We often treat our God like our servant, ordering Him around to give us this and that without first understanding who He is and what He wants. Finally, who is God? Is it not the self? Yet seeking purpose from within is futile as Man is one of the weakest of creatures. On average we tell 4 lies a day. Try counting how many other sins we commit throughout our lives? Why does this void exist anyway? The rule of life is this. When we have a strong purpose in life, we will naturally know how to live our lives. We can withstand any hardship, even death itself.

It is difficult to define religion due to its prodigious diversity. However, we need religion to be satisfied in life. It satisfies our need for value, meaning and motivation. We are not animals but spiritual creatures. No other physical or psychological necessity can satisfy us. We need God. A good religion helps us to solve the problem of sin, improve the quality of our lives and gives us hope for the future. It improves the quality of our lives, improving our relationships with others and increasing our compassion and love. It motivates us to take care of the world. It enables us to have respect for God and that we do not domesticate Him nor are ignorant of His qualities.

In order to join a religion, we must study it and be committed to it. Facts lead faith which leads feelings. If feelings were to lead faith, that faith is a reed in the wind as feelings change like the weather. Facts are true. And the truth is real, consistent, comprehensive and practical.

2. The Mind

Next, the mind must be healthy. How does the mind work? Firstly, the primary language of the brain is in the form of images. When we step into this world, as visual creatures, we perceive the world mainly by vision. The secondary language of the brain is in the form of sounds, touch, odors and words among others. All these get converted into images in the brain. Hence understanding the text is the ability to associate words with images in your head! This involves imagination and logic. These associations form one’s short term memory, and if the neural pathways are used frequently, it’s converted into long term memory. Understanding also involves expression. It’s the ability to convert the memories in your head in to words on the paper or through the mouth.

So if you want to understand the text, you must be able to form images in your brain. If you want to score well in exams, you must also be good at expressing one’s thoughts on paper.

Apart from writing or speaking during exams, reasoning is another method of applying one's understanding by discerning between facts and lies. When encountered by multiple choices, reasoning helps to make the choices that brings the greatest good, or the least loss. To have a good sense of proportion, apart from being spiritual and ethical, one must also absorb much knowledge, thus becoming wise and discerning, frequently making the right choices at the right moments. To identify the best choices, an internal debate must commence with one supporting various arguments with several evidences. The most convincing argument will have the best and most evidences. When no suitable choice can be found, always seek a compromise. A compromise often ends in a win-win situation which benefits everyone.

You are smart! School based exams only focus on a narrow range of intelligence. Hence it's lack of comprehensiveness means that one's intelligence can never be determined via school exams. The truth is everyone is smart in some aspect or another. The proof is that most people are alive and well. If you are reading this, you are smart! Intelligence is diverse and multi-faceted. There’s verbal intelligence, numerical intelligence, spatial intelligence, musical intelligence, physical intelligence, interpersonal intelligence, intrapersonal intelligence, natural intelligence, visionary intelligence and many others. So start exploiting your assets and eliminate the liabilities.

Emotions are positive signals for action. One must identify the signal, and make the correct actions. When the actions required are not made, the signal will gradually become so strong that the rational mind loses control. For example, loneliness signals one to find friends. Frustration signals helplessness and one needs to take a different approach to solve the problem. Anger signals intense discomfort. One needs to avert discomfort as soon as possible. However it's very important that theology guides rationality, and rationality guides emotions. Always make decisions according to this priority hierarchy.

I learnt this knowledge from Awaken the Giant Within by Anthony Robbins. State management is important to ensure peak performance. Within you is the potential to be smart or stupid, kind or mean, sad or happy among other modes. The key to success is to be in an appropriate state at the appropriate situation. When you need to study, you must be in a studying state. When you are with your friends, you must be in a social state. If you are studying and in a social state, you’ll feel very lonely. When you are with your friends and in a studying state, won’t people see you as a nerdy antisocial misfit? When your boyfriend is picking a fight with you, do you have the ability to switch to a tolerating state? The examples go on and on.

The technique to switch from state to state is by using one’s focus and one’s physiology. Focus by manipulating one’s thoughts and feelings. Change your physiology and biochemistry by manipulating body position and movements. For example, when you are sad, focus on the happy things and you’ll be in a happy state. Laugh forcefully and crazily and you’ll get the same effect! Know your buttons. Push the right buttons to get the right states.

3. The Body

The body must be healthy. You can do more things with good physical fitness. When you are sick, get some medicine. Good exercise prevents ailments. By eating according to the food pyramid, one gains good nutrition which provides the fuel for growth and maintenance. I do hope you won’t get sick during the exams. Surely you will not want all your efforts wasted.

4. Social networks

Lastly, a healthy social group is important for holistic health. Take conscious control and select your friends wisely. People influence people. To get good influence, be with good people more often. Avoid bad influence by spending less time with bad people. Yet do not delve into prejudice, stereotyping and discrimination. My stand is that you balance things out. Be friends with everyone. But do not fall into either extremity.

The Four Spiritual Laws

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Just as there are physical laws that govern
the physical universe, so are there spiritual laws
that govern your relationship with God.

God loves you and offers a wonderful plan for your life.

God's Love
"God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever
believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life" (John 3:16, NIV).

God's Plan [Christ speaking] "I came that they might have life, and might have it abundantly"
[that it might be full and meaningful] (John 10:10).

Why is it that most people are not experiencing that abundant life?

Because...

Man is sinful and separated from God.
Therefore, he cannot know and experience
God's love and plan for his life.

Man is Sinful "All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" (Romans 3:23).

Man was created to have fellowship with God; but, because of his own stubborn
self-will, he chose to go his own independent way and fellowship with God was broken.
This self-will, characterized by an attitude of active rebellion or passive indifference,
is an evidence of what the Bible calls sin.

Man Is Separated "The wages of sin is death" [spiritual separation from God] (Romans 6:23).

This diagram illustrates that God isholy and man is sinful. A great gulf separates the two. The arrows illustrate that man is continually trying to reach God and the abundant life through his own efforts, such as a good life, philosophy, or religion
-but he inevitably fails.

The third law explains the only way to bridge this gulf...

Jesus Christ is God's only provision for man's sin.
Through Him you can know and experience
God's love and plan for your life.

He Died In Our Place
"God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners,
Christ died for us" (Romans 5:8).

He Rose from the Dead
"Christ died for our sins... He was buried... He was raised on the third day,
according to the Scriptures... He appeared to Peter, then to the twelve.
After that He appeared to more than five hundred..." (1 Corinthians 15:3-6).

He Is the Only Way to God
"Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, and the truth, and the life, no one comes to
the Father but through Me'" (John 14:6).

This diagram illustrates that God has bridged the gulf that separates us from Him by sending His Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross in our place to pay the penalty for our sins.

It is not enough just to know these three laws...

We must individually receive Jesus Christ as Savior and Lord;
then we can know and experience God's love and plan for our lives.

We Must Receive Christ "As many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children
of God, even to those who believe in His name" (John 1:12).

We Receive Christ Through Faith "By grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves,
it is the gift of God; not as result of works that no one should boast" (Ephesians 2:8,9).

When We Receive Christ, We Experience a New Birth (Read John 3:1-8.)

We Receive Christ Through Personal Invitation [Christ speaking] "Behold, I stand at the door and knock;
if any one hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him" (Revelation 3:20).

Receiving Christ involves turning to God from self (repentance) and trusting
Christ to come into our lives to forgive our sins and to make us what He wants us to be.
Just to agree intellectually that Jesus Christ is the Son of God and that He died on the cross
for our sins is not enough. Nor is it enough to have an emotional experience.
We receive Jesus Christ by faith, as an act of the will.

These two circles represent two kinds of lives:

Self-Directed Life
S-Self is on the throne
-Christ is outside the life
-Interests are directed by self, often
resulting in discord and frustration

Christ-Directed Life
-Christ is in the life and on the throne
S-Self is yielding to Christ,
resulting in harmony with God's plan
-Interests are directed by Christ,
resulting in harmony with God's plan

Which circle best represents your life?
Which circle would you like to have represent your life?

The following explains how you can receive Christ:
You Can Receive Christ Right Now by Faith Through Prayer
(Prayer is talking with God)

God knows your heart and is not so concerned with your words as He is with the attitude
of your heart. The following is a suggested prayer:

Lord Jesus, I need You. Thank You for dying on the cross for my sins. I open the door of my life and receive You as my Savior and Lord. Thank You for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life.
Take control of the throne of my life. Make me the kind of person You want me to be.

Does this prayer express the desire of your heart? If it does, I invite you to pray this
prayer right now, and Christ will come into your life, as He promised.

Copyrighted 1965, 1968 by Campus Crusade for Christ, New Life Publications.

My Personality

2009-12-04T06:46:00.001-08:00

I did this personality test, called the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator, one of the most accurate test on the market. The results are precise but not definite. (http://www.personalitypage.com/home.html)

1. ISTJ Strengths

Honor their commitments
Take their relationship roles very seriously
Usually able to communicate what's on their minds with precision
Good listeners
Extremely good (albeit conservative) with money
Able to take constructive criticism well
Able to tolerate conflict situations without emotional upheaval
Able to dole out punishment or criticism when called for

2. ISTJ Weaknesses

Tendency to believe that they're always right
Tendency to get involved in "win-lose" conversations
Not naturally in-tune with what others are feeling
Their value for structure may seem rigid to others
Not likely to give enough praise or affirmation to their loved ones

Longevity

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How to live longer?

1. Healthy lifestyle:
Here comes the standard answer. Eat according to the food pyramid. Drink shakes comprising of 30 different fruits and vegetables. The antioxidants help slow down aging. Work during the day, and sleep during the night. Exercise 6 hours per week. Have an optimistic attitude. Don't retire and keep working. Retired people die earlier because their brains are idle. Cranial blood vessels harden(atherosclerosis), less blood flows to parts of the brain and that fellow will die in a stroke. You'll live about 20 years longer. And don't commit suicide.

2. Reviratrol:

It's some kind of grape essence which increased the life span of lab rats by 20%. Since it has only been discovered recently, no valid results have been confirmed from human test subjects, because they are still alive.

3 Hyperbaric oxygen chamber:

It's an altitude chamber that increases the partial pressure of oxygen within it, with you inside, forcing oxygen into all the parts of one's body. The treatment will be an hour a day. One will feel refreshed and energetic. The whole machine weighs two tonnes, and costs a sum with a lot digits. I heard many celebrities like Michelle Jackson have one of these in their cribs.

4. Stem cell technology

Lets say you're now old and some of your organs are dying. Change your organs like spare parts with stem cell technology! This is a cutting edge technology where scientists extract adult stem cells from your body and programme it to grow into any organ you need. Sounds unreal? It's unreal. Well surely the rich and famous will be help make it real in a couple of decades. Right now the guys in US have successfully created blood vessels and other frankensteinish body parts floating in fluid filled glass bottles.

5. Genetic engineering

If you are alive and reading this ammature article, then this method won't work on you. It only works for your children to be. Scientists extract gametes, tweak the genes governing lifespan, perhaps enhancing mental and physically abilities with extra pay, put them back into the wife and a super human is born! Well this is another 'prediction' of the future by the scientific academics.

6 Nanotechnology

What if the nanotechnology sector became so advanced that they could create miniature robots that can swim in our blood vessels, seeking out and destroying cancer cells, parasites, bacteria and even viruses? Or if they could...

Why do we need to live longer anyways? Well obviously it's a good thing for a good person to live longer! Well what's left to do is to define the minimum standards for a good person. I believe a good person is someone who loves God and loves people. By loving God, even if hell does not exist, he will seek to know God and never bear to disappoint Him by disobeying his Word. By loving men like oneself, a good person will love the unloved, not with words alone, but with actions that prompt unconditional sacrifice for the well being of others, and even seek to love one's enemies. Certainly it'd be a good thing for that good person to live longer so to help change the world into a better place right? Are you a good person?

Serendipity versus Omniscience

2009-12-02T01:41:00.000-08:00

We are all unique, yet ineradicably we share common characteristics. Among the many facets of character, serendipity and omniscience subsist within our very nature. Those who are often tuned to the former are described as serendipitous whereas those who are tuned to the latter are labeled omniscient.

One who is predominantly serendipitous believes in luck. They conform to a worry-free life, easily satisfied by what's given to them. Being passive, they set low standards for the things they do. They avoid contemplating on what the future brings, living life day after day with no direction of cause. In face, they abhor meditating on existential purpose, lacking foresight and long-term plans. They make up the majority of the people, supporting the ideals of their omniscient leaders. They enjoy life more than anyone else, with main philosophies like 'life's short, play more', but they may have uncertain futures.

One who is predominantly omniscient believes that 'man is not the creature of circumstances, but circumstances are the creature of man.' (Benjamin Israeli). They believe that it is their decisions, not the environment that shapes their destiny. Being a goal-setting and determined breed, they are calculative and resort to meticulous plans to achieve their ideals. Undeniably, those who bring about the greatest impact to the human race, like Theodore Roosevelt and Adolf Hitler are predominantly omniscient. They share the same conviction of carving their own future, rather than depending on sheer luck. Unlike the happy-go-lucky club, their lives are stressful and often shrouded in disappointments.

Consider a drunkard who is the father of two sons. Due to some mishap, he gave up on his dreams and chooses the life of what society labels as a 'failure'. Every night, he quarrels with his wife until she filed for divorce. Out of rage, he tortures his children every night. However, when the boys grew up, one of them ended up like the father. Even worse, he became a criminal. The other son, lead a perfectly normal life. He married and formed a wonderful family. When both were asked 'Why has your life turned out this way?' Surprisingly, they both answered 'What else could I have become, having grown up with a father like that?!' One's destiny is determined by one's attitude towards life. In this case, it's better to take the omniscient approach and take full control of one's destiny.

Serendipity is an ability to make fortunate discoveries accidentally. It is an risky art that puts much control out of one's hands. There are situations where it is advantageous to be serendipitous. For instance, when one needs to find information. If that information is found using an Internet search engine, surely time is saved and things get done efficiently. But where's the excitement in that? In contrast, browsing for reference in the library is not a bad idea. Though time consuming, strolling from shelve to shelve enables enriching discoveries to be made. One might stumble upon a dark chest of wonders which might change one's life forever, or one may have taken a book of total disinterest. Or what about be creative? It's difficult to be creative at solving problems when one is in a focused mode, all we'll ever get are standard answers. However it's better to let the mind wonder, perceiving bits and pieces of unrelated information and by linking some of them together, one gets creative solutions! That's how Albert Einstein and Thomas Edison conceived marvelous ideas.

Its our beliefs towards life that determines how we live. Epistemologicaly, when should we be serendipitous or omniscient? To answer this question, one must understand that it is beyond our capabilities to provide the true answer. The knowledge of science, philosophy and religion provide no conclusive answer, as different people have different belief systems. However, this question can be answered under the realm of faith. Faith that has a reasonable basis is worth believing.

If I created 6 billion robots in my image, giving them intelligence and other human qualities, surely they are able to live on their own. But if they wanted to know how they should live, the answer can never be found unless they asked me, their creator. Surely they will know why they were built and how they should live. To avoid 6 billion robots questioning me day and night, I provided 'The Manual for PhiL's Robots' for reference. To the human race, that manual is here! It's called the Bible. The following is one of Jesus' parables.

¹⁴"Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his property to them. ¹⁵To one he gave five talents^{a]" style=" line-height: 0.5em; ">[a]} of money, to another two talents, and to another one talent, each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey.¹⁶The man who had received the five talents went at once and put his money to work and gained five more. ¹⁷So also, the one with the two talents gained two more. ¹⁸But the man who had received the one talent went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master's money.
¹⁹"After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. ²⁰The man who had received the five talents brought the other five. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with five talents. See, I have gained five more.'
²¹"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'
²²"The man with the two talents also came. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with two talents; see, I have gained two more.'
²³"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'
²⁴"Then the man who had received the one talent came. 'Master,' he said, 'I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. ²⁵So I was afraid and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.'
²⁶"His master replied, 'You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? ²⁷Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest.

²⁸" 'Take the talent from him and give it to the one who has the ten talents. ²⁹For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. ³⁰And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.' (Matthew 25:14-30)

This piece of literature, though 1900 years old, remarkably portrays the coexistence between serendipity and omniscience. The first inference that can be made is that God gives different people different talents to achieve different purposes in life. We must not be too serendipitous, so to waste our talents; or too omniscient, so to suffer in pursuing the unachievable. Though each of us are unique, we must put in effort and make full use of our talents to contribute to society. We must not be inadvertent in discerning the limits of our capabilities, or we may fail to live our our purpose in life. As long as one's purpose is achieved at the particular moment, then one is free to take a break and enjoy life.

If there is no judgement after life, we will not be accounted for our actions. Henceforth life lacks meaning and standards. Justice is demised and chaos sets in. However according to the Bible, reward awaits those who make full use of their abilities. Yet condemnation awaits those who do not even try to use their talents. Total serendipity is wrong. Even if one's talents are trivial, one must never give up trying. In reciprocation to this, total omniscience is also unhealthy. Overestimation of one's abilities leads to disappointments, stress and depression.

Conclusively, if the balance is struck, then 'For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him.' If a man exercises his talent, he is progressively able to do more with it. But if he has a talent but never exercises it, he is bound to lose it.

To the serendipitous, life is not a breeze in the wind, rather a sacred gift.

To the omniscient, life is not a war, but an enjoyable game.

Should Parents be Punished if Their Children are Misbehaved?

2009-11-29T20:49:00.000-08:00

Parents are the head of the family, and their children will lead future families. It is culturally obligated that parents are to do everything in their power to instill good character in their children. Children are individuals under the age of eighteen, which are in general dependent on their parents for food, shelter and education. As the saying goes, 'Don't teach if you are not an expert, you'll ruin another's life', parents should be punished if their children have bad behavior.

Parents should be punished if they neglect their children. Parents are responsible in ensuring holistic growth in their children and this includes monitoring their children's physical, mental and spiritual health. They should encourage children to take up sports, study hard in school and provide a good religious background. They should also monitor their children's social networks. Parents should prevent their children from mixing with ill behaved delinquents. If anyone of these responsibilities are neglected, parents should be punished. Parents should be vigilant and make sure that the pursuit of wealth, material indulgence, addicting hobbies and ignorance in parenting skills should not hinder the education of a child, thus mitigating ill behavior.

Parents should be punished if they abuse their children. Abuse causes ill behavior. A parent may abuse a child so to release anger and stress. These negative emotions may originate from work of from tense social relationships. The imperceptibility of the causes and forms of abuse make its effects devastating and difficult to handle. There are many forms of abuse. Physical abuse includes harsh punishments, tortures which create physical wounds, starvation and drug abuse among others. Mental abuse includes inappropriate remarks, frequent scoldings and ceaseless insults which maims the spirit and makes the child feel less than human. Collectively, abusing a child incurs ill behavior. The child may follow the ill behaviors of their parents by abusing others. They may become defiant and commit crimes as the result of ill treatment. The child may also become anti-social because they lack social skills, or a phobic towards adults.

However there are exceptions to be made. Some special children are ill behaved no matter how much effort has been put into nurturing good character. Some children are genetically predisposed to aggressive behavior, such as children having XYY chromosomes. They have higher testosterone levels in their blood, making them irascible and impulsive. Some children are autistic. They have special abilities, like artistic and mathematical talents. However, they lack good social and motor skills which make the seem ill behaved. Some children also becomes ill behaved after they met an accident, be it a head injury or serious psychological attacks. To me, parents should not be blamed under these specific circumstances.

In conclusion, parents should give their all in moulding children into civilized adults. If parents feel incapable in meeting this challenge, they should have taken contraceptive measures.

Facts and Meaning

2009-11-28T03:45:00.000-08:00

I heard this in the Sunday sermon. The pastor said that there are many facts in life. These facts have no meaning, until we attach meaning onto it. No doubt, God created and maintains the Universe, and everything happens to fulfill His Will. Hence the meaning we attach to the happenings in life must be the same as God's purpose for that event. The results of a deviated, selfish, non-theological meaning given to a fact will heap tragedies in life. Many believe in demons, the forces of evil. They'll do everything they can to blur one's perception towards the purpose of God.

According to the Bible, God is all knowing. He knows what's best for us. Hence even if the world thinks a particular event is a mishap, we must not be ambivalent in identifying the greater good. How can we appreciate life if there is no death? How can we appreciate silence if there is no noise? How can we live according to the law when we have never experience war? How can we be humane when we never experience suffering?

The 'good and prosperity' overly emphasized by the Chinese culture, of the fantasies of wealth and power falling down from the sky is not Christian. Chinese culture mainly defines all 'calamities' as karma or bad luck, that all things that bring pain is bad, that we must avoid loss at all costs, and hasten the passing of disasters.

It is calamities that bring the greatest good! No one loses anything with the right meaning! The Christian should understand that everything is good. Because everything comes from God, and God is Good. When we give a Godly meaning to facts, we reap benefits. When we give a human meaning to facts, we gain only sorrow.

When the pastor's mother died on the spot in a car crash recently, his family and friends said things like 'Why did such a disaster happened to such a good lady?' 'Such bad luck!' 'I hope things like this will not happen in my family.'

But the pastor prayed and studied the Bible to understand God's Will. He noticed that even worse things can happen. He thought his mother had all her limbs torn off, even contemplating a possible decapitation. But the lady in her fifties only suffered a fatal concussion. Things can always get even worse. The pastor even became grateful to God because nothing worse happened. He became even grateful that the accident did not happen last year, before his mother believed in Christ. He was glad that his mother is in Heaven because she accepted Christ right before her departure.

The pastor then said 'Prayer and reading the Bible, is an activity that trains one to give the correct meaning to the facts in life.'

" Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. " (Rom 5:1-5)

Look towards the bright side of things. Invest all one's effort, not just to avoid or to solve problems, but to go through hell and back with blessings in hand, extracting the treasures hidden within the thorns! What's the use of lingering in negativity? Even if the world is shouting 'God! We are in BIGGGGGGGGG trouble and we're all gonna die!!!' True Christians will shout 'Trouble! We have a BIGGGGGGGG God and you're going down!!!'

Not Enough Time?

2009-11-28T02:48:00.000-08:00

When we complain, 'THERE'S NO TIME!!!!!!!!!!!' It means that we have terrible time management. Basically tasks are divided in to 4 categories.

1. IMPORTANT AND URGENT, like answering the call of nature or preparing one's dinner.
2. IMPORTANT but NOT URGENT, like long term goals, daily prayer, exercise or family outings.
3. URGENT but NOT IMPORTANT, like social networking, day dreaming or bad habits like smoking.

4. NOT IMPORTANT and NOT URGENT, like watching Korean dramas, chatting long hours on the phone, surfing the net with no aims.

The more you time you spend on categories 3 and 4, the more short-term pleasure and long-term pain one shall experience. The more time one spends on categories 1 and especially 2, the more long-term pleasure one shall enjoy, provided that one has the foresight to identify the worth of short-term pains.

One more tip, the brain has the power to control time. Time is relative and flexible. It depends on how we perceive time. Our mindsets towards time enables us to slow down, or hasten time whenever necessary. For instance, when we concentrate on an activity, for example, reading, we'll read faster and cover more pages, achieving much more in a short time. Hence when we focus, we slow down time. However when our mind is idle, time flies! For example, when one watches television, play computer games or sleep all day long, the mind is working at minimal performance. The final effect will be that one will regret having nothing done right throughout one's life, complaining the possible future if one had more time.

A part of the art of meditation is self reflection. A fool is one who forgets how one looks like after looking in the mirror. One should understand one's self and change the person from within. However only those who truly knows God, knows Man, and one who truly knows Man, knows God, a quote from John Calvin.

A New Beginning

2009-11-28T02:43:00.000-08:00

This age of global warming, floods, droughts, sickness, earthquakes, economic crises, pollution, discrimination and corruption with ticking time bombs like super volcanoes, mega tsunamis, species depletion, famine, drug resistant anthrax attack, meteor strikes, shutting down of the Great Ocean Conveyor, world war 3, water shortages, nuclear holocaust, unpredictable climate change... will test whether humanity deserves a bright future, or extinction.

Over the last century, we experience the greatest advances and the most dire catastrophes. I urge everyone to play a part, to merge past knowledge with contemporary science.. to solve all these problems.. and embark into a newbeginning. ^^

School

2009-11-28T02:29:00.000-08:00

What's the use of school?! Before you all shout 'Useless!!!!!!!!!!!!' Bear in mind that school brings:

1. FINANCIAL SECURITY. According to the bureau of labor of US, the average lifetime earnings of a dropout is $400k, $900k for a high school graduate and $1900k for a degree holder.

2. KNOWLEDGE. Why do monkeys swing in trees and humans fly around in rockets?

3. HAPPY FAMILY. Good mates who are ethical and savant are generally highly concentrated in Universities. And trust me, good mates ensure a happy family in the future.

4. SATISFACTION IN LIFE. In school we'll learn the tools needed to fulfill our purpose in life. However there's only one way to be truly satisfied in life. You must know the answer for these three questions. Where do I come from? What's my purpose in life? Where do I go after I die? Well in Church(Christians started the first universities), I learnt the answer to the three questions. I come from God, I am alive to please God as a creation pleases his Creator and I'll be going back to be with God after I die for eternity. Hence a Christian fears neither life nor death, men or demons for he is at peace with God.

A Meeting with My Uncle Ay Chong

2009-10-24T06:24:00.000-07:00

My uncle Ay Chong is 36 years old. He has been in the States for 15 years now, working as a stock trader. He came back to Malaysia for a short vacation. I think he plans to bond with his family, especially the often neglected nieces and nephews. So we went to Mid Valley to meet him for lunch today. We went to the Gardens for some Italian food. The food was excellent, with servings of prodigious proportions and expensive prices.

He asked about our life, and gave MANY good advice, which gave me profound enlightenment! He knew I had no problem being a 'good' boy, since I'm always been protected within the walls of my family and church. So his advice was basically, get a girlfriend and have some fun, get a part time job to improve social skills, get an apartment and live with friends away from home. It's pathetic to him to see me single almost all my life. He said I should get into a relationship and have some 'experience'. But of course he did mention, 'keep it clean' and 'dont do shity stuff' because 'it's karma, it'll come back to haunt you.' He really wanted me to get a part time job to learn how to deal with different people(especially the mean ones) under different situations. 'You'll learn things which can only be learned when you get a job.' 'You'll learn your weaknesses, then ya, work on it.' 'Your first pay check will make you feel.. (makes all those 'high' expressions).'

Lastly, he encouraged me to explore the ugly side of life. This includes experiencing 'night life' and 'bad people'. The rules are never smoke or do drugs, because these things bring irreversible consequences. I think he is just concerned about me being so naive and 'untested' by the temptations of life. He mentioned about his friend, being a conservative catholic since childhood, who turned bad and 'did everything he din't do for the last 18 years, in 2 years, after he left home'. I think he never wanted that to happen to me and really hoped that I am firm enough to 'be true to myself'.

In my opinion, I'll be getting a part time job, no doubt about it. Being naive attracts bullies like moths to a flame. I experienced it and it really feels like crap. Maybe I'll hang on to the appartment thing for now, because the university that I'm going to is just a 30 minute drive from my home. I think I'll try it around 21 during my clinical studies. About the girlfriend thing, I do not think it's a good investment to be made as the returns are not as promising because it's not wise to dump so much time, money and energy into a relationship with the sole motive of 'having fun'. However if I'm doing it for marridge, everything will be much meaningful. I guess I have passed the age of puppy love. How sad.

The ugly side of life will charge towards me with full force one day. I do not know whether I'll be able to stand firm, or whether I'll 'lose it'. But I do know that God loves me. When He thinks I'm ready to face something as powerful as the Devil's fiery temptations, He'll let me experience it. He'll be with me step by step, holding me when I wobble and lifting me up when I trip. He'll do everything necessary, not to make me stumble, but to mould me into a better man! ^^

My Status

2009-10-23T08:39:00.000-07:00

I'm using my STPM trials to register for IMU's medicine course next febuary, but they'll still check my actual results, so I'll still be studying hard. Starting early should bring many benefits..

Well STPM is going to end, it truly has been a wonderful journey that requires one to change from one's actual self for a while into a machine-like creature, that studies whenever possible. Gonna say good bye soon, to my emotionless-task oriented-robotic side, and head into a new phase in my life. ^^

Literature: The Comfort Women

2009-10-09T23:28:00.000-07:00

World War 2,
After 'The Nanjing Massacre'.

Sexually transmitted diseases were widespread,
the Japanese army became less efficient.
So comfort stations were made
to provide entertainment.

Japanese prostitutes were sapped,
and Korean girls kidnapped
to supply a demand,
which will never end.

1000 soldiers with 1 comfort station,
of 5 rooms each with 5 girls.
'5,10,15 times a day' she mentioned,
'Swollen vaginae, minor meals.'

To have fun, the soldiers must pay.
Their money gone, day by day.
So towards the towns they marched,
where they'll enjoy, free of charge.

'I endured mutilation and torment,
Why was I born woman?
50 years I lived in silence
I will not even tell my husband.'

Many still live in dissatisfaction,
demanding apology and compensation
from a Japanese government
which chooses to be silent.

Lives of enduring nightmares,
behind forgotten eyes.

By Philip C. (Inspired by 'Behind Forgotten Eyes', a documentary on History Channel.)

Religion: Salt and Light

2009-10-09T20:07:00.000-07:00

Salt and Light (NIV)
13"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.
14"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. 15Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.
馬太福音 5:13-16 (Chinese Union Version (Simplified))
13 你们是世上的盐。盐若失了味，怎能叫他再咸呢？以後无用，不过丢在外面，被人践踏了。 14 你们是世上的光。城造在山上是不能隐藏的。 15 人点灯，不放在斗底下，是放在灯 ? 上，就照亮一家的人。 16 你们的光也当这样照在人前，叫他们看见你们的好行为，便将荣耀归给你们在天上的父。

Observation:

Jesus is teaching a crowd and His disciples on the mountainside (5:1). This so called “Sermon on the mount” is a very important record of Jesus’ teachings. Let us focus on Matthew 5:13-16. Jesus uses a commanding tone. “ You are the…” (5:13, 14). Jesus uses symbolism as the main literature device, “You are the salt… the light”.

Interpretation - Compliment

Jesus addresses His followers as the salt of the earth. Salt is highly valued in the ancient world. The Greeks name salt as divine (Theion). There is a Roman saying “There is nothing more useful than salt.” Salt is common. It plays a vital role in sustaining the ancient society.

Salt is a symbol of purity. It is glistening white. It is commonly used as an offering to Greek gods. Salt is a preservative. It is used to preserve food, in methods such as pickling. It dissolves in the food, constituting to a very dry environment unsuitable for microbial life that destroys the food. It is also used as an antiseptic in medicine. Salt lends flavor to things. It is used in cooking. Food will not be enjoyable without salt.

Yet salt can lose its saltiness. After some research, it is possible that in Palestine, the ordinary oven is just outside the house and is built of stone on a base of tiles. In such ovens “in order to retain the heat, a thick bed of salt is laid under the tiled floor. After a certain length of time the salt perishes. The tiles are taken up, the salt is removed and thrown on the road outside the door of the oven… It has lost its power to heat the tiles and it is thrown out.”

Jesus is the “light of the world” (John 9:5). He addresses that His followers be the same, just like him. Christians are given the privilege to shine for the world, yet we are not the true light, we only reflect the light of Jesus. So we should not glorify ourselves, but glorify God.

Light enables us to see. In ancient times Palestinian homes are very dark and their windows are only about 18-inches across. It is also not easy to light up the lamps during that time where matches have not existed. The common practice is that before leaving home, the Palestinian puts the lamp under a bowl when he doesn’t need it. When he returns he will put it on its stand again to light the house. So light is a very treasured thing.

Light is a guide. In the darkness, people use fire to light up the way so that they do not stumble or get lost. Light also resembles a warning sign. It acts like a beacon warning about the danger ahead.

Application – Responsibility

Salt is pure. Jesus wants us to be pure like salt. Hence, we must live a pure life, free from all sins and corruption. We should be “unstained from the world” (James 1:27). Yet the world is a dark place to live in, filled with all sorts of evil. It is therefore a struggle and a challenge to maintain our purity. We must constantly pray that our Heavenly Father gives us the ability to hold true to His teachings.

Salt is also a preservative. Christians should be preserved from evil. We must also preserve the society from corruption. In families, Christian parents should guard their children from bad influences. They should not indulge in mortal living, but be very sensitive towards the growth of their children. The church should not be silent when injustice is spread across the society, because silence is often interpreted as agreement. We must speak out and object injustice. We must be the antiseptic for society.

Salt lends flavor to things. Salt is to food as Christianity is to Life. Christianity give meaning to life. The Focus of life is God, not men. To know our purpose in life, we must not ask ourselves, but ask our creator God. But to be able to ask God that question, people must believe in Him, belong to Him and be saved. Yet how can people be saved if they don’t even know God? It's our job to introduce God to man.

So we must never be the salt that has “lose its saltiness” (μωρανθή : to become foolish). Uselessness invites disaster. The society will reject us and we will reject ourselves, for we will feel that our purpose is worthless. God loves the world, he wishes that everyone be saved. Hence, we must preach the Good news to everyone, that by admitting that we have sinned against God by not accepting Him as God, then repent by accepting Jesus to be our personal saviour, all our sins will be forgiven and we'll gain eternal life (John 3:16); we must be the diffuser of joy for the world; we must show the world what the children of God are really like.

Light is for all to see. “a city on a hill can never be hidden”, we must be lifted high for all to see. Christianity should not be a secret discipline. It must be perfectly visible for all men. I feel sad when some Christians deny their identities as Christians because they feel ashamed of themselves. Why is it so? I think it is because their deeds do not reflect their identities. Good deeds are born from a life filled with the Holy Spirit. Our goodness should not be confined within the church walls, but to be seen for all during our daily lives, be it in our conversations, our work, our routines or how we solve dilemmas. We should also prohibit ourselves from evil for it will dim our light.

Light is a guide. Christians should be the guide for this world. We have God’s words as the absolute measure for righteousness. The people of the world will slowly be corrupted if they solely depend on their own measures for righteousness. The conscience of man is imperfect and continuously being corrupted and denatured throughout life. Hence it is our duty to guide them to the right track with the teachings of the Bible, so that they will not go astray. We must be the leader for the lost..

Christians should act as the warning light. We should remind our brothers about what’s right and what’s wrong. We must not warn with anger, irritation, criticism, condemnation, or the desire to hurt, but warn with love and gentleness, so that our warnings will be seen as a blessing. We must protest towards all injustice!

We should shine for God. Men are to see our good deeds. The word ‘good’ used in this context (5:16), ‘kalos’, means beautiful and attractive. Our deeds must not only be good, but be attractive. How can we preach about the goodness of Jesus, when we ourselves are corrupted? We must first show the world that it is by believing in Jesus we leave corruption and become good. Jesus can change your life. Actions speak louder than words. It is important to attract people to Christianity, yet we should not draw the attention to ourselves, but towards God. Jesus prohibits theatrical goodness. We must not be like the Pharisees. We must be good from the inside out.

It is the combined effect of salt and light, that we are most effective. Salt delays decay, light illuminates the world. We must first conserve our quality as the children of God, and through our good deeds, be an example for the world to follow. We should first amend ourselves, ridding ourselves from all sins before amending the world.

Light attracts people to notice us. They will be curious about Christianity. And as the salt of the world, we bring the reason of life to the men of the world - to become the children of God.

This is indeed an overwhelming task. It is already difficult to reject all the temptations hurdled at us during everyday life. However, what is impossible with man, is possible with God. We must constantly submit ourselves to God to accomplish this prodigious task, for we are powerless without His grace. If you are a Christian, act like one.

Literature: Whales and Men

2009-10-03T08:52:00.000-07:00

How, o how do we treat whales?
The masters of the crystal sea,
The experts of marvelous singing,
The sweetest of creatures.

Which lived eons before us,
With admirable wits,
and cunning to spare.

How, o how do we treat whales?
Of baleen and toothed,
of Blue whales and Dolphins,
of Humpbacks and Orcas.

Of loners and groups,
Their beauty utterly breathtaking,
Their magnificence, divine.

How, o how do we treat whales?
Once whaling bloomed,
35 thousand killed in a year,
All from greed that blinded us.

Blood spilled and gushed,
Into the stinging sea,
3, 200 pound harpoons pierced
through the flesh, with no mercy

Tearing through to the bones,
Wounds, moans, screams everywhere,
Its whole body hauled to deck!
Where more torture lies.

How, o how do we treat whales?
They say conventional harpoons,
killed them too slow.
What to add, what to add?
Exploding tips to make them blow.

The rate was fast,
but the quality was rough,
so they hooked cables to smaller harpoons,
to deliver a heartless electrocuting death.

How, o how do we treat whales?
Up on deck where doom lay,
A whale looked innocently as they corner,
with bloody hands…

They chopped and sliced,
Butched and slashed,
Molested and raped,
With bloody hands…

They sawed off the head,
Sliced off the fins,
Chopped off the tail,
Violet fountains belched…

What happened next?
What happened next?
They laughed and cheered,
For money is near,
Their brutal savagery made clear,
Blood and sea water there and here,
Dark heaven cried and shed its tears,
Their wails echoed, no one hears.

By Philip Chua.